CMOL and Fearless

11

All the food on the menu looked good. I ordered bulgogi and Mi Kyung ordered seolleongtang soup. As I drank hot chocolate ate ate Nutella mochi donut holes and listened to the sound of Christmas songs playing on the radio. I was happy. I had been happy with my members, I didn't hate them, they were like family it's just that when I was with them I was reminded of everything that's been going on. Being with Mi Kyung made me forget all the bad memories for a moment.

"You must really like the food." Mi Kyung said.

I looked up.

"Pardon?"

"You have this big smile on your face, so I said you must really like the food." She explained.

"Oh, well the food is amazing." I replied.

"How much longer until the end of your break?" She asked.

"Umm, until a week after New Years." I answered.

"Oh."

"Are you visiting family?" I asked.

"Yes, but I live close to my family so I visit them often." She explained.

"You are a really talented television host, how long have you been working there?"

"Thanks and not that long, I went to university but I took a shorter program. It finished a few months ago and I got a job."

"Wow, really?"

"It wasn't actually that difficult, the company is small and they needed more employees at the time."

"And you're really good at your job." I stated.

"I don't know, I feel like I just learn fast, if they give me tips on how to keep people interested in the conversation, I keep it in mind." She said.

"Are you going to be busy after the holidays?" Mi Kyung asked.

"Ya, we have a lot planned." I answered.

"Do you visit your family much?"

"No, I don't really have time and when I do, they don't have time." I replied.

I realized she was better at keeping the conversation going then me. I tried thinking of something to ask her but she asked another question.

"I saw one of your interviews, you hurt your leg. Is it fully healed now?"

"Yes, it's fully healed now. I even went skating today."

"Oh, right you like ice skating!"

"Yup."

I looked at the time on my phone. I should probably get going. I finished my food not too long ago and it was already 10:14 o'clock. The other members and I wanted to go to sleep early tonight since we had limited time that we could sleep when the holidays are over.

"I think we should start walking back." I said.

"Yup, it's getting late."

I paid for Mi Kyung and I explained that I had lots of money so I might as well pay for her food as well. The members and I were fully capable of buying an apartment with bedrooms for all of us but we were scared if we did the ceo would get angry at us because the fans would somehow find out. Where we lived right now the fans wouldn't expect us to be living there.

We started walking back to the party. The snow was falling now and it had gotten colder.

"Thanks for coming to the party tonight and for going to the restaurant with me, I don't know how bored I would of been if you weren't there." I said.

"No problem, I enjoyed talking with you, but don't you like dancing?"

"Yes I like dancing but Im not good at dancing." I answered.

"What are you talking about? You're great at dancing!"

"No I'm not, I rap and sing."

"Just because you're a part of the rap line and vocal line doesn't mean you are not good at dancing."

"I guess, maybe I'm a little good at dancing." I said.

"You're amazing at dancing!"

"Give yourself a compliment every now and then." She added.

"I do, I'm good at singing." I said.

She sighed.

When we arrived at the party I said I needed to go meet up with the other members.

"See you again." I said, smiling.

"Until next time." She replied, smiling as well.

I texted the members telling them where I was. After a few minutes of waiting the other members started arriving.

"I missed dancing like that, not following a choreography." Owen exclaimed.

"Yup, I agree with you I missed dancing like that too." Zeke added.

"How did your date go?" Junsu asked.

He was looking at me with a huge smile on his face.

"Awesome." I said, I small smile formed on my face.

"Awwwwwww." The members said.

I blushed.

"Guys." I said.

"What? We are just happy for you!" Siwoo explained.

I sighed.

"Let's head back home now."

We all put our masks on and Zeke called two taxis. When the taxis arrived we got in, 3 members in each and told the driver our destination.

I looked out the window at all the Christmas decorations on the buildings. The city was beautiful, twinkling lights of red, green and white. We passed a park and I noticed a couple snowmen. I was faintly aware of the Christmas songs playing on the radio. I heard "Last Christmas" as the driver quietly sung the lyrics.

"I'm not ready for the holidays to be over." Siwoo said quietly.

"Me neither, which is why we need to make the best of the days off we have." I answered.

We had until a week after New Years and that wasn't far from now. I was dreading seeing the CEO's face again, just thinking of him made me feel sick so I quickly thought of something else.

Mi Kyung. I liked her. She was nice, easy to talk to. But I knew I couldn't be with her. I barely knew her even after tonight and I wouldn't be able to get to know her more. Bringing her into my life would be a big mistake, a mistake I wouldn't make. I took out the keychain the fan gave me. It gave me comfort. The picture of the members looked so happy.

Hello! How are you? It's been really cold here lately. If I had started my book earlier I wanted to release this chapter closer to Christmas but that didn't happen. Anyway, I hope you are well!