Jungkook woke up the next morning with a pair of arms wrapped around him, pulling his back flush against a muscular chest, and encasing him in a bubble of contentment. He breathed in deeply, the comforting aroma of cinnamon leading him to the conclusion that Hoseok was the one hugging him. He vaguely recalled being carried up the stairs and placed into bed, and he had a faint memory of calling Hoseok back to cuddle with him. He was trying to remember why he was being carried in the first place when it hit him, and last night's events came rushing back.
They know. The realization hit him with thundering finality, and Jungkook suddenly felt like he was going to throw up. He acted so foolishly last night. He was just so scared, and angry with himself... his hyungs probably hated him now. They told you last night that they're completely fine with you being a little. He sternly told himself, but his mind, always so quick to point out his faults, had other ideas. They were probably only saying that to get you to stop crying. You're such a nuisance when you cry, always so freaking loud. Hyungs were tired, all they wanted to do was sleep, but you had to go and run off like that. Then you just had to slip into littlespace, didn't you? Made everything more difficult. That's what you always do. Seriously, why couldn't you just put on your big boy pants, grow a pair, and TALK to your hyungs?? What made you think that storming out angrily was a good idea? Are you stupid? Do you want to get kicked out of Bangtan??
Jungkook's brain knew all of his insecurities, and it was horribly good at exploiting them. His mind took his deepest, darkest fears and twisted then into reality, forcing him to doubt his every move. He knew that he'd acted irrationally last night, and his brain was making sure he was punished accordingly.
He reached onto his nightstand for his phone and turned it on, trying to distract himself from his thoughts. He noticed that he had forty five missed calls and sixty five unread messages. Deciding to listen to the voicemails later, he opened his texting app. Five messages were from Manager Sejin.
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Manager Sejin nim :)
Sejin nim: Jungkook ssi, where are you?
Sejin nim: Jungkook ssi, your hyungs are worrying.
Sejin nim: Jungkook ssi, no one is mad at you, we just need to know if you're safe.
Sejin nim: Jungkook ssi, please respond.
Sejin nim: Jungkook ssi, I'm worried.
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Jungkook's heart lurched at the thought of his manager, who he thought of as a second father, not knowing where he was, and worrying about whether he was alive or dying in a ditch on the side of the road. To distract himself from the feelings that were threatening to overtake him, he closed the chat to read his other messages. The other sixty messages were from his lovers. As Jungkook read the messages, he wanted to curl up in a ball and cry.
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Hubbies <3
Joon hyung: Jungkook's not at the park.
Joon hyung: Should Jimin and I go home?
Joon hyung: He was crying... o~o
Jin hyung: Baby, why were you crying?
Jimin ssi: I wasn't crying, I just had something in my eye! 0^0
Joon hyung: He was crying. I was very concerned.
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A "Little" Surprise
FanfictionJungkook is Bangtan's Golden Maknae, but he's also a Little. He's too scared to tell his hyungs because he doesn't want to burden them, and he's supposed to be perfect. When his hyungs find out, because there are no secrets when you live with six ot...
