Trouble In Paradise- A Manstead Fanfic (COMPLETE)

Chapter 55- The Choice

Will POV:

It's been a week. Natalie has been asleep, reliant on the ventilator. I wish i could say she was getting better. I really do. She should be awake. She shouldn't be this sick. She was fine just a week ago and now she's reliant on the ventilator.

Dr. Hansen has been giving her antibiotics to try and clear up the infection in her bone marrow. It's not helping. The only other option has the chance of harming our unborn child. I know Natalie wouldn't do it if she knew it would hurt the baby. She would do anything to ensure the best life for the kids.

As I sit next to Natalie through her treatment I grabbed her hand, hoping if she was aware in anyway she'd know that I am right here. I'm forced to make an impossible decision. A decision that has no guarantee to clear out the infection. A decision that I shouldn't have to make without her. A decision that decides her future, and our family's future.

"Dr. Halstead, I was wondering whether or not you have made a decision. I understand this is hard, especially considering she is still asleep and is unable to have a say." Dr. Hansen says as she knocks on the door.

"I... I... I'm still deciding, I just don't want to make the wrong decision. I don't want to do what she wouldn't want. I'm sorry, I'll hurry up." I say, wiping tears from my eyes.

"No, it's fine take your time. Again, I'm really sorry." She says before leaving.

I turn my attention back to Natalie as more tears flow down my cheeks. I can't postpone this decision any longer. It's just so hard. If I choose to deliver the baby, and give Natalie the medicine the baby could die. But if I choose to not deliver the baby Natalie could die. I know Natalie would do anything to give our kids the best life possible, even if it means giving up her own life. But I can't lose her.

Maybe I'm just being selfish. Maybe this really is an easy decision to make. It should be, right? I should do everything I can to make sure Natalie is okay, but I know how broken Natalie would be if she lost the baby in the process. If only there was an option to save them both. To ensure both of their lives. To ensure they'd both be healthy. To ensure I'd still have them both.

But I can't. I have to choose. I have to risk one of their lives. I have to risk losing one of them.

"Dr. Hansen? I've made my decision." I say as I notice Dr. Hansen walking in, "Deliver the baby and give Natalie the medicine. Please do everything you can to save them both. I can't lose them."

Dr. Hansen nods as she goes and books an OR and an OB. I turn back to Natalie and grab her hand.

"I'm so sorry baby, I just can't lose you." I say while burying my face in her chest, tears flowing down my cheeks.