COMPROMISE LOVE

Chapter 25 - Please Stay

Jaylin’s POV

“I’m only yours and yours alone. This is not a promise because I know promises are made to be broken. This is the truth. I don’t need to give you a promise just to believe how true I am to you but all I can give is the truth. Enough to make you feel this feelings of mine” I was caught with his words. We looked at each other as if our world stops. Then I can feel how my heart beats so fast.

Look Jaylin! Galit ka kaya wag kang madadala sa mga sinasabi niya. I thought about that for a moment.

He’s saying the truth. You can feel it. Another voice echoed here in my mind. My conscience is really helping me out. Helping me out to lose over this guy. Maybe my conscience is right. I’m feeling what he said. Straight to my bones and I can feel my cheeks are burning red. Pero kahit na. I’m so angry. Don’t know why I guess partly I’m jealous and partly I’m insulted.

Jeezz.. Stop denying Jaylin. You’re just so jealous. Right? Naku my conscience is really helping me here.

Maybe my conscience is right. Suko na ako. Yes I’m Jealous. So damn jealous of that girl. Tsk.

“Jaylin?” bigla akong natauhan sa mga iniisip ko when Aj called me and still looking right through my eyes. I felt a lot of emotion here.

“Look, I’m sorry but please stay?” he’s still looking at me and trying to figure things out if papayag ba akong manatili o hindi.

“Bakit ba kailangan ko pang mag stay dito? In fact I have my own condo unit” I tried not to lose over this guy no matter how he beg. Though I’ve felt his sincerity hindi pa din ako dapat bibigay agad-agad.

He paused for a moment after I asked him. Umiwas siya ng tingin sa akin. He started to move backward and he comb his hair using his hand. Oh. So hot when he do that. Mas naging gwapo pa siya. Hmp.

“I guess hindi na talaga kita mapipilit” he heavily sighed and started walking towards the doorstep of his condo unit.

I can feel that Aj started to open the door. I waited for it to close pero hindi ko napansin na sumara na yung door. Lumingon ako bahagya doon sa door and I saw Aj paused there for a moment pero tinalikuran din niya ako.

After a while he started to take one step. But then he paused again and said “I want you to stay cause I don’t want to be away from you again” he then started to walk inside his unit. I then turn to look at him pero sa pag turn ko it was too late. The door was already closed.

Why Am I feeling pain when I saw him walked away from me? Why am I feeling that tears started to fall when he left me here all alone. Am I losing over this guy? Does my pride really fall because of him? Dahil sa ginawa niyang pag-alis sa harap ko at sa pag-iwan sa akin. I felt that I don’t wanna be alone. I feel so weak.

[Insert the song Weak by Jojo]

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Dugdugdug. This heart of mine. May sarili na atang utak eh. Bakit pag may sasabihin si Aj na hindi kapanipaniwala nadadala nalang ako. I can feel that he’s saying the truth but my head keeps on blocking my thought that he’s sincere about us. But eventually hindi niyo naman ako maisisi if I doubt on Aj. I don’t even know kung ano talaga ang status ng relationship namin. All I know is that we’re doing this because it’s a contract. Tss.

I’m still at the front door of Aj’s condo unit. I was about to knock the door pero pipigilan din ako ng sarili ko. Parang nagtatalo ata yung puso at utak ko.