Litchfield Diaries

Regrets

*Piper's Pov*

Alex has been really quiet lately. I know that it's been a hard 10 years since the death of her mother, but I still feel like she's still upset with me that I left. It's was wrong of me. I knew Alexs' mom very well. I feel like such an ass. I couldn't go with her even as her friend. I know she said it was okay, but I know it's not.

Alex, Nicky, Lorna, Big Boo, and I were in the rec room playing scrabble.  All of a sudden Alex got up and left. "Vause, where ya goin?" Nicky asked. Alex didn't reply. Nicky looked at me and I got up to follow after Alex.

"Alex, talk to me. What's going on?" I asked. She stopped in her tracks and turned to me.

I could see she was holding back tears. "What Piper?" She asked. "Al, I want you to talk to me. This isn't you." She just shrugged. I took her hand and we headed back to our cube. Leanne got moved with Miss. Claudette and I got moved with Alex.

When we got to our cube, Alex layed down on her bed and just started to cry. "Piper.... whyd you leave me?" My heart dropped. I went over to her and started rubbing her back. "Alex, I left because I didn't know what to do. And I've been thinking about it a lot and I know I was being shallow."

Just around 2 hours passed and Alex stopped crying. We talked about what happened the day I left and we brought that day to some closer understanding.

"Now, how about we go to the showers? No one else would be in there right now. We could shower together" I said. Alex smiled and said "Okay sexy, what are we waiting for?" We both laughed and headed for the showers.

Alex and I started to make out and undress each other. I was talking off Alexs' shirt when she started to grab my arms to stop. "Al what's wrong? I thought  you wanted to do this" I said confused. "I I do! But uh.." I looked at Alex confused and that's when I knew something was up.

We left the showers and yet again went back to our cube. I sat her down and made her explain. "Okay, Pipes, please don't freak out... but earlier this morning.. before you were even up, I got up to use the bathroom and Mendez was on duty. He saw me and for whatever reason, he grabbed me by my shirt and threw me against the walls and started to beat me up." All i could do was sit there in disbelief.

"Alex... Why didn't you tell me?!" I was suddenly taken over by anger. "Pipes, please just leave it be." Alex pleaded. I knew that today would be hard for her, but Alex usually doesn't cry much, knowing what Pornstache did, it makes more sense.

Alex begged me not to do anything, but I had to. I left the cube and headed out to find fucking Mendez. I saw him and immediately raised my hand and slapped him.