alexithymia
subclinical phenomenon involving a lack of emotional awareness or, more specifically, difficulty in identifying and describing feelings and in distinguishing feelings from the bodily sensations of emotional arousal
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"𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨...
(also i want to clear up the fact that yes chenle can feel emotions but he cannot convey them as much as normal people. for example, if someone feels sad they would cry, if chenle feels sad, he wouldn't be able to do anything and would just sit there with a bottle up emotion. idk if this is actually alexithymia but it makes my writing easier so yeah)
"can a sinner become a saint?"
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'you no-good disrespectful ungrateful careless prick?' chenle read as he traveled up the elevator along with kun, lucas, winwin and renjun (a/n we stan china line)
"did someone have the audacity to graffiti a gangs base?" renjun crossed his arm over and yawned
"anyone has the audacity to do anything" lucas yawned, swishing his coffee cup like a wine glass
"but why chenle out of all people?" winwin took a sip out of his coffee cup
"random pick i guess" kun glanced at the marking on chenle's tray
"it's hyejin" chenle deadpanned, but he couldn't help but internally laugh at how childish she was. they left the elevator and sat down in the recreation room where most of the members spent time when they either didn't have work or arrived before taeyong
"hyejin? where did she even stay yesterday?" winwin sat down next to yuta, but immediately moved when he sensed yuta coming around to hug him
"she left" chenle stated, grabbing a seat next to jisung
"she left??" jisung almost jumped out of his seat
"with all that information?" mark butted into the conversation, his jaw dropped to the floor
"and not finishing the key cards?" johnny has just entered the group, sitting down and joining in with the gossip
"she read the member profiles as well!" winwin exclaimed
"who read the member profiles?"
all their heads turned to a lean figure who just entered the room with a threatening essence. the room grew silent, their heart stuffed in their throats
"n-no one" winwin gulped
"no one?" taeyong began taking slow steps towards winwin
"hyejin" chenle gained eye contact with taeyong
"chenle can you be any less honest-" haechan whispered through clenched teeth
"shut it donghyuck" taeyong slammed the table without breaking his gaze from chenle
"i was the one who gave winwin permission to give the member profiles to hyejin. winwin just followed what i said" chenle stood up, 20 pairs of eyes boring into him
