commitment// sulay

six.

"let's not talk about this anymore, jimin," yixing said, "it depresses me. tell me, jimin, how are your friends?"

"don't change the subject because you know i'm right," jimin told yixing, "you deserved better and you know it, xing."

"jimin," yixing said, looking to him, "let's not talk about it anymore, okay?"

jimin sighed, nodding, "okay, hyung. i'll respect your wishes. my friends are well. jungkook and taehyung are still dating, the namjin couple is eternal, and yoongi and hoseok hyung are going to start dating soon, i think."

"and you? how is your love live?" yixing teased as he tried to force tzuyu out of his mind, "i'm sure someone as charming and cute as you has a bunch of guys lining up to date you, hmm?"

"ah, whatever, hyung, you know i'm not like that," jimin blushed, rolling his eyes as a pleased little smile appeared on his face.

"still, surely you won't have any trouble with things like that," yixing said as he started seasoning on the steaks. he was surprised that junmyeon had just so much food in his fridge. but with his large friend group, he guessed it made sense.

"mm, actually, i do have feelings for someone," jimin said, "but i think that maybe he's not into me like that."

"does he flirt with you?" yixing asked, not realizing that jimin was talking about him. he completely forgot that tao had told him the night before, since he didn't take him seriously anyways.

"yeah, but he flirts with everyone. he doesn't mean too, he's just too sweet sometimes," jimin decided, sighing.

"well who is it? i'll talk to him for you," yixing offered.

"no, if i told you then it wouldn't be a secret," jimin laughed.

"tell me about him, then," yixing said, "at least give me the opportunity to guess."

"mm, well, he's really tall. like six foot," jimin said, yixing nodded, "uh, he's really sweet and very considerate. he does this thing where he'll take care of everyone except for himself. he doesn't have a lot of confidence in himself, which baffles me because he's really really handsome and super smart too. he speaks a lot of languages, which i think is pretty cool. he adapts to situations like a god and he does his best to always keep his calm, which i think is pretty great since i panic the second something goes even slightly wrong."

"doesn't sound like anyone i know," yixing said, thinking hard, "what else about him?"

"he's really fit, like seriously fit, and he has to be the hottest guy i've ever seen in my life," jimin said, "i really just can't stress how handsome he is, hyung. he could be a model."

"he's fit? drop a workout routine, i need to work on my physique," yixing laughed. jimin sighed.

"no you don't, hyung. don't you have like a six pack or something?" jimin asked, "lemme see, lift up your shirt."

"nah, i look weird right now. i used to have an eight pack, you know," yixing shook his head, "i really have to hit the gym. been caught up with all this breakup shit."

"what do you have now?" jimin asked.

"a six," yixing sighed.

"you're ridiculous sometimes, hyung. you know how many people would kill for a six pack?" jimin asked, "not to mention your arms. they're really nice."

"nah, they're skinny," yixing shook his head, flexing his arm muscle, "kinda puny."

"yeah, but you have to take your body type into consideration. you're really lean. i think you were meant to be a skinny stick, hyung. considering that, it's really impressive how much muscle you've maintained. it's more difficult for people with your body type to do so," jimin said, "really, hyung, you're a doctor. you should know that."

"i mean, yeah, i guess," yixing nodded, knowing that there was logic behind it, "but the thing is, when i stand next to people of different body types, they look a lot better. like scarily better."

"no they don't," jimin shook his head, "you're an attractive guy, hyung. really, maybe i should buy you new mirrors so that you can see it."

"you compliment me too much, kid," yixing laughed, "you do know that i don't respond well to compliments, right? your attempts aren't going to work."

"i think that maybe if i drill it into your head, you'll believe it more. why don't you have any self confidence, hyung?" jimin asked curiously. yixing shrugged.

"cause why would i?" yixing laughed.

"do you have like a lot of brothers or something?" jongin asked. yixing looked to him, nodding.

"yeah, i've got eight. why?" yixing asked.

"oh my god, i suddenly understand everything," jimin said, eyes wide, "that's why you're like this? did they bully you growing up or something?"

"hmm? nah. i mean, they talk rough, but that's just they are," yixing shrugged, "i'm not sensitive when it comes to that, jimin. i don't get butthurt over stupid things like that."

"and what, they'd tell you that you're ugly or something?"

"eh, you know how brothers can be. call you stuff like ugly, stupid, dumbass, faggot, shemale, stuff like that," yixing shrugged. jimin frowned.

"hyung, you do know that that counts as verbal abuse, right?" jimin asked. yixing rolled his eyes.

"nah," yixing denied, "just how they joke around."

"i'm confused, why would they call you a fag and a shemale?" junmyeon asked, "aren't you straight?"

"that's just what they called me," yixing shrugged once again, "they didn't mean anything by it."

"if people called me that, i'd get hella pissed, joking or not," kris said, "well, are you more handsome than them? you gotta at least have something over them?"

"i don't think so," yixing replied as he put the steaks on the indoor grill that junmyeon for some reason had, "i mean, my mom used to say so, but she would always take my side if they said something too harsh."

"well, if your mom said so, then i'll assume she's right," jimin laughed, "moms are always saying that all their kids are equally attractive. do you have any pics of them?"

"yeah, on my phone," yixing said, "it's on my phone. you can go get it if you want, it's in my room."

"i'll get it, i'm pretty sure i'm the only one who knows where your room is besides you," junmyeon sighed.

"thanks," yixing called after him.

"whatever," junmyeon grumbled back. yixing frowned, looking to junmyeon's friends.

"i don't think he likes me very much."