Pride!Roman

Part 9

"I don't know Patton. I don't know."

"Well it's not like I can just let my kiddo leave to go to the dark side, we NEED him, he's Thomas's creativity after all. And he's family! I want my family here with me!"

Tears started to prick Patton's eyes as Logan directed his gaze to him with a bitter expression on his face.

"Actually Patton, that's not necessarily true. Thomas can function properly without Roman, even though that wouldn't be ideal for him. He'd have to find a job outside of YouTube as he wouldn't be able to make entertaining videos anymore."

My eyes widened as I started thinking about Thomas's fans.

"Oh no, the videos! It's been forever since Thomas has made a video, so how on Earth are we going to entertain his fans now?!"

Patton brought his stare from the ground to look me in the eyes.

"Well you know we could always do a Sanders Sides video with the three of us?"

Logan adjusted his glasses that were sitting crooked on his face.

"Well we've already done two videos about getting Virgil back and accepting him, so people would believe that we were copying video ideas. And in realistic terms, I don't think a video would be very entertaining without Roman present."

Wow I can't believe us right now. This is part of the problem. Roman left because he felt unwanted and unloved and here we are worried about Thomas's dumb youtube channel.

Patton suddenly piped up that surprised both Logan and I.

"Wait a minute, you said that he was born a dark side right? And that you used to live with him before both of you came to the light sides? How come you've never told us about that? Maybe we could've done something different and that would've made him happier here."

"Well I...I didn't want to upset him. I never did. He was always there for me in the dark side, and he only treated me harshly in the light side because he was scared. He was afraid I would tell you guys the truth about him and he was afraid that you would treat him differently or kick him out. And he felt even worse after you guys accepted me because he knew he lied to you and led you astray."

There was a short pause before Patton decided to break the silence.

"We would've totally accepted him! Just like we did with you. And we would've forgave him for lying because he was just too scared to tell us the truth."

"Well I think it's a little too late to tell him that now."

Patton pursed his lips and scooted a little closer to me.

"So you mentioned about living with him in the dark side, what was he like?"

I chuckled as a small blush went across my face as I relived all of fond memories of living with him.

"He...was extremely different. He definitely isn't the carefree crazy guy that I knew, maybe it was because of his acting skills. If anything, he was kind of like Remus. The two of them were inseparable and were always doing some stupid crazy things with each other. And from what I've seen, they were even crazier together than how Remus acts now. But besides that, what separated him from Remus was that he was always really kind to me. Not saying that Remus and Deceit weren't kind to me, it's that he went the extra mile you know? I was a lot more anxious back then and Roman, or Princeton, was the one that always brought me out of my anxiety and panic attacks. He made sure to include me in the things Remus and Deceit didn't, he always brought smiles to my face and make me laugh...I loved him. And I still do."

Deafening silence broke out into the room. There was tension in the Roman-less room, but it wasn't awkward.

"That's why I couldn't stay in the dark side for long after he left us. Those two drove me crazy and I had to get out of there as soon as possible. That and him leaving broke my heart in general. I remember whenever he talked about leaving and right before he left I always told him one thing, "Wherever you go, I will never be that far behind you" and I stuck by that, but now I'm not sure I can go back at this point. I'm not sure he'd even want to see me anymore. He clearly left for a reason and maybe that reason is me."

Another silence fell upon the three of us and then Logan got a far away look in his eyes.

They both started to look just agitated and sad in general. I even started to feel panicky (more so than usual) and was having shortness of breath like earlier, and that's when I looked at the dark walls around us. Since Roman/Princeton isn't here, Thomas's mind is sensing that's something is wrong. It's going into some overdrive mode while trying to fix the problem. That's why his door made it feel like there was a raging fire and then it felt like it was twenty degrees colder once you got inside. And because its his room, it's still effecting the us but more negatively than it normally would.

"We need to get out of here, his room is effecting us and I don't think it would be healthy for us to stay in here much longer."

The two sides silently nodded and the three of us stood up, but we didn't make it far before we were summoned to Thomas.
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Sorry for the shorted chapter and I didn't get this our earlier. I've been having really bad depressive episodes lately for a multitude of reasons and it hasn't been this bad in two years. Thank you guys so much for being patient with me and I'll get the next part out as soon as possible. I hope you're all having an amazing 2020 so far!