Pride!Roman

Part 14

He grabbed both of our wrists and literally started to Naruto sprint down the hallway, leaving Deceit and I to awkwardly stumble behind him. Soon enough we were standing outside of my door and the other two stared at it in awe. Remus threw himself up against the door.

"It's been so long since we've seen this door! Princey, open it!"

I put my hand on the doorknob and right before I turned it to open the door. I turned my head to look at Deceit. He was completely silent and completely zoned out while staring at the door. It's like he's in a completely different world. It was as if he was staring, but not seeing. He got this very distant look in his eyes that just said that he wasn't on earth with the rest of us.

However, Remus was the exact opposite. He was about to jump off the walls and probably break the door down if I don't open it soon. He was literally vibrating with excitement and he had this glossy look in his eyes that could easily be mistaken for a lustful look. Well, he always has a lustful look in his eyes but that's because he's Remus, but I know my brother and I know his expressions. This is something completely different.

The funny thing is, is that both of them were completely unaware of the other. It's almost as if to them, only my room and I exist. That's very sweet of them to be glad I'm back and all, but I don't want them to forget each other. I just want to go back to how things were before I left, but it's not going to be the same without Virgil.

Heh, maybe he'll come back one day? Wishful thinking I guess.

I opened the door and Remus quickly rushed past, almost knocking me over. There was absolutely no hesitation in him whatsoever.

I let out a soft chuckle, that's my brother alright.

I turned around to see that Deceit isn't aware of anything despite looking right through me and into my room.

I reached out with both of my arms and grabbed both of his hands. I pulled him toward me gesturing him to walk into the room, except he was so surprised that he stumbled forward and fell right into my chest.

I instinctively let go of his hands and wrapped my arms around him in a protective manner. He tried looked up at me but he couldn't see because his hat fell in front of his eyes.

A soft laugh escaped my lips as I gently lifted his hat with my right hand.

His eyes seemed to sparkle, but never in a way that I've seen before. It wasn't readable except for being in complete awe and totally love struck, but I doubt he'd still have feelings for me after all of these years, and especially after what happened between us.

"You okay there? You were completely zoned and almost fell."

I helped him up back on his feet while still keeping eye contact.

"Y-yeah I'm fine. Thanks."

Remus had caught his attention so Deceit started to look around the room.

Deceit and I used to be really close and practically head over heels in love with each other, but we never made things official out of fear of if we ever fell out of love and then things would be awkward between us.

That was, until the day I left.

When I told him that I was leaving, he...he didn't take things well.

Words were said, things were thrown, tears were shed, feelings were hurt, and so on.

It also didn't hurt that at the same time, I also had feelings for Virgil. And then once becoming a light side I also started to get feelings for the other two as well and then things got so much more confusing.

Haha! It seems like Remus is the only person I never caught feelings for, because he's my brother and that would be weird.

Anyway, it hurts me to this day knowing that I left while Deceit and I of us were on such bad terms.

At least I had the courage to tell him. I was a coward and couldn't even face my brother the day that I left. How was I supposed to tell him that I was going to take over his spot and then make sure he stayed shut in the dark side?

I can't imagine how he would've felt, but I also can't I can't imagine how it felt knowing that I left without saying goodbye. I don't think I'll ever stop feeling guilty for what I did to him and all of the negative emotions I put him through, and the same goes to Deceit.

"Roman? Er, Princeton, are you okay?"

I turned around to see both Remus and Deceit looking at me with concerned looks on their faces. The sad thing is, is that I have no clue who just said that.

"Y-yeah I'm fine. I'm just thinking that's all."

Remus stepped forward.

"Well whatever it is that you're thinking about, stop it. It looks like it's troubling you."

He's right. It is troubling me. And by it, I mean mean my past. Why can't I just move on? Why must I always be stuck in the past with all of my mistakes? Why can't I just be a better person?!

Why can't I just be happy?

"Hey! I told you to stop that!"

He was pulling a frowny face just I could sense a little bit of playfulness behind it.

I cracked a smile and lunged at him, causing the two of us to fall over. I'm not sure what caused me to do that, but it just felt like the right thing to do.

I'm not even here for an hour and I'm already acting on impulse again. Not that I didn't do that in the light side, but I just did it a lot more often here.

The two of us were laughing while I could see that Deceit was facepalming, yet he had a smile on his face. I can really tell that he missed having to rein the two of us in every once in a while, even though he'd never admit it out loud.

When the two of us stood up, Remus ran off to explore another part of the room leaving just me and Deceit. He got a very serious look on his face and cleared his throat before speaking.

"Princey, there isn't something I've always wanted to tell you before you left."

I could physically see him mentally punching himself for slipping up, but I completely understood because his lies tend to slip out when he's nervous.

"It's okay Deceit, take your time telling me. What is it?"

"It... is not about my name."

I couldn't see it but I could feel my eyes light up. Out of all of the sides, he's the only one I don't know the name to. There's a possibility that Remus knows, but no one else does.

"Oh, oh wow! Okay! Um, take your time telling me, and don't feel rushed okay? Thank you for trusting me!"

He gave a slight nod.

"My name, is definitely not..."

He bit his lip and stared at the ground.

"Janus."
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