serenity ~ woosan

「 fifteen 」

san/wooyoung

san held the younger in his arms as he kept crying, frantically wiping the tears away before they could roll too far down his cheeks. the sight of the grey-haired boy crying in his crumpled ball broke san's heart. he wished he knew what to do to make the younger stop crying, but did nothing much for fear of doing or saying the wrong thing and making the situation worse.

"woo, do you want to stay home instead of going out tonight?" he asked cautiously, not daring to show how much he cared and how much it hurt to see wooyoung's red, teary eyes dart up at him as he tilted his head upwards.

"y-yeah... i'm sorry..." wooyoung sighed, closed his irritated eyes which san never wished to ever see again and resting his head on the older's chest.

"don't apologize!" san squeezed the younger, trying to hide how much hearing his breaking voice pained him. "do you want me to leave you alone?"

wooyoung sat in silence to this question, and with each second that passed, san hurt more. he wondered why the other wouldn't respond, scared that he messed up and said the wrong thing.

of course, he wants you gone, san, isn't that obvious? he asked himself, that's why he hasn't said anything yet. stupid, stupid, stu-

"fuck no." the quiet words from the other made the voice in the back of san's head shut up. wooyoung took a quiet, shaky breath before continuing in a whisper, making san wonder if he was supposed to hear what he was saying.

"i never want you to leave."

"gotcha," san smiled and kissed the top of the boy's head, holding him closer than before. they sat quietly, contently. wooyoung's words kept replaying in san's head, leaving him with a large smile that wouldn't disappear, even if it started to hurt.

fuck no, san thought, hearing it in the other's voice, i never want you to leave.

the simple sentence made his heart flutter and squeeze the boy in his arms tighter. the other squeaked.

"sannie, what the hell are you squeezing me for?" he yelped, teasing the older and looking up at him. san, in response, shook his head and softly kissed the younger, muttering to not worry about it into his lips. he lingered with his lips against the other's, both moving slowly and cautiously. both could tell that they, as well as the other, didn't want to end this moment by pulling away.

sadly, san eventually pulled away to breathe. wooyoung frowned softly at the absence of the other's lips, to which san gently apologized and just looked at the younger, who kept trying to get his attention as he daydreamed about the younger.

i love him. the words popped into san's head without him even caring. he was alright with the idea of loving wooyoung. he'd loved him, even just a little, for so long - it felt amazing to be open with himself about it now.

i love him so much, he continued to think, i love the way he pouts when i stop kissing him. i love his eyes and the way he talks. i love his laugh and his smile and how his skin feels on mine. i love his face when he's focused and the noises he makes when he's asleep and how he shivers when i kiss him. i love how he makes me feel and everything else about him. every part of me loves every part of him.

his sappy thoughts were cut off by wooyoung grabbing his jaw.

"did you hear anything i said?" he frowned. san shook his head, a stupid smile on his face, and stayed silent, still admiring the younger.

"what's up with you?" wooyoung pouted, "you seem like you're in your own little world."

"youngie, i..." san started, feeling butterflies clawing at his throat and stomach.

"you... what?" wooyoung continued.

"i think i love you."

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ok so this has nothing to do w anything but um i got a girlfriend and i'm so frickin happy !! she's the best thing ever and lowkey she's been helping me with writing this so like even though she won't see this i just wanna say that i love her a lot hehe <3

anyways i hope you liked this !! thank you for reading !!