Aftermath

Swabbed?

I wasn't thinking at all, i was extremely mad and I really didn't care what happened now. I shot at Candice and she ran into the bathroom.

"Alana stop before you kill someone", Jake said trying to restrain me.

"Let me go.Do you think I give a damn.", I said as I shot missing Jake as he ran out the door.

I ran after him out the door. Jake got into his car leaving. I aimed at the car and shot the window out.

Candice was still in the house.

"Open the door.", I said banging on the door.

"No Lana, I'm sorry"

"You know what I'm not gonna get upset about this. I'm leaving."

I was gonna pretend mike I left, but I was right outside the door.

"Lana", I heard her say trying to make sure I was gone. As soon as she opened the door I jabbed her right in her nose.

"You slut, did you really think I was gonna let you get away with that. I want your stuff out of my house", I screamed going out to my car and driving home really fast.

As I pulled up at the house, I saw Jake's car parked outside. Did he really not get the memo?

"Lana listen, please."

"Get your stuff and get out of my house.", I said calmly.

"Babe please"

"Get your stuff and get out of my house", I screamed. I was fed up. So I went to the bedroom and I got a lot of his stuff and I threw it outside.

"Get out, get out now. I don't want to see your face.", I screamed pushing him out the door. I slammed the door. As I heard him leave I just cried, then X called me.

"Hey Lana I just wanted to see how you were doing"

"X I'm trying, but I can't do it anymore"

"Wait, wait what's wrong"

"I can't"

"Wait I'm coming over there now."

X came over as soon as possible. I had the gun holding it. I was crying still tears running down my face.

"Alana put the gun now", X said calmly.

"X do you understand how your husband can just hurt you. Do you know where love can lead you.".

"Yes I do and you know that. But Alana I need you to put the gun down"

"I should've killed them both.", I said sliding the gun over.

I told X the entire thing. He understood because he had been through a similar situation.

"Candice didn't love me like I loved her."

"Candice? Candice who.", I asked.

"Candice Parker"

What that's my Candice.

"That's my close friend. She and my boyfriend had an affair"

"You should've told me Lana"

"Yeah love is so weird. I need a drink, pills, anything please. I just need something now."

"No Lana. You gotta stay stable. I don't want you to relapse. Just be strong please", he said holding me.

"X I have lost all hope. Only reason I keep stable is because of my kids. They need me. I don't care anymore".

"Its ok Lana. Sometimes its good to cry. Just let it all out."

I cried all night long. Many people have been calling me, but I haven't answered. I only talk to X. I have been crying my eyes out since last night. I look horrible, my eyes are red and puffy, my hair is shaggy, I just look like crap.