Internet Infatuation (YouTuber Fanfiction)

Part I

Troye POV

At exactly 9:56pm, I think about the place I call home. I've always loved Perth, Australia, until I met my YouTuber friends.

Then the distance between us became this physical thing that I constantly felt and thought about while we were apart, and I know I have other friends and family, and they are all amazing amazing people, but we always want things we can't always have.

But the thing is, I'm heading to Digifest very soon, which is great, because I'll get to see all of my favorite people, like Zoë, Alfie, Connor, Jim, Tanya, Dan, Phil, Joey, Louis, Hannah, Grace, Mamrie, Marcus, Niomi, Tyler...

I need to stop thinking about Tyler Oakley. I mean, I shouldn't ignore him, but I shouldn't let myself get so sidetracked and distracted by him either. I could easily say that Tyler, or Tilly, as I sometime refer to him as, is my best friend. But he was also that friend that I could easily see myself dating and falling for hard if I thought about it ok much. I never gave our friendship much thought because if this very reason, but now... Well, it's like he's an insect, and my mind is made entirely of flypaper. He keeps getting caught and staying there until I finally manage to pry him away from my thoughts. Though, whenever he gets stuck again, that's the flypaper's fault, and not the fly's for once.

It doesn't help if I go on Tumblr, either. I can't go through my notifications anymore, because everything I'm tagged is almost always Troyler related. I can't follow too many fans anymore, either, just because my days floods with my best friend and I.

I know other YouTube ships have to deal with this, but there's absolutely no way any of them have it this bad. I can see why, though. The viewers can see what I subconsciously feel, but don't confirm, and Tyler and I are both out as gay, we're best friends, we're attractive ( though that's pretty irrelevant in my eyes ), and we're the ship that everyone either suspects has been canon at one point or is currently canon. It's the striving for victory in getting two people together in a perfect match that draws people to us, I think. But still... More people should go after Phan, or Hartbig, or Zalfie, or even Jaspar. Anything to keep my mind from wandering too far down the wrong corridor.

But the thing is, I can't bear to separate myself from Tyler at all, or even attempt distance myself from him. For God's sakes, we're even sharing the room at the hotel in Florence! Honestly, I'm surprised that no one has picked up on my seemingly intense feelings, especially Tyler. He knew I was gay before I even told him, yet he hasn't said a word about this. And I have no doubt he totally would, if he knew, so that's how I know he doesn't know.

But none of the others haven't said a word either. I mean, I don't talk to them nearly as much as with Tyler, but I still have a regular thing going on with many of them, like Connor and Caspar. Although, I guess being an actor has its perks after all...

Anyways, yeah, I miss my YouTube friends more than anything in the world, but I was seeing them in just a few days, thank God, and I might just possibly maybe be developing a tiny crush on my best friend. But that's okay! Because I'm going to deal with it, by completely ignoring it in the hopes of it fading completely from my mind.

The question is... Will it fade from my heart?

Caspar POV

As I stumble out of the bathroom to my room in order to pack for the trip, all I can think about is the fact that Joe said he'd room with me for the duration of our stay in Florence.

To anyone else, this might not seem like a huge deal. But lately, whenever I look at Joseph Sugg, my roommate, something... Happens. My heart beat picks up the pace slightly, I think harder before I dare say a word to him, and my stomach feels like a fell down a flight of stairs. I sincerely hoped it meant that I'm just getting sick, because I refuse to consider the alternative. You know... The one where I-