song for this chapter:
'needed me' by rihanna
(repeat it)
• laiyas pov •
im a virgin.
im a virgin.
im a virgin.
remember it cause soon youre not going to be.
"ok" danny said. he went back to playing with my lips. i was getting hotter. i hadnt done anything for him yet, so i reached down, and started moving my hand up and down. he started making noises, and i could see his eyes roll back. mhm im acc not that bad! danny took my hands and pinned them both on the headboard.
"are you ready?" danny asked. i nodded.
"youre soaking so we wont be needing this" he threw what looked like lube back into his suitcase. he had already put on the condom. here we go.
he looked me in the eye. i was about to cry i was so nervous. i nodded slowly. this is really happening. virginity boutta get deleted.
he carefully moved my legs apart with his knees. he moved my arms onto the pillow and used the other hand to direct himself.
"ah" i let out a gasp. it hurt. more than i expected. dannys head flicked up.
"laiya you need to tell me if this hurts okay?" he asked.
"okay" i said quietly.
he moved it in further. i held back my gasp. he came back up to kiss me. he wasnt moving but it felt so weird. i tried to close my legs a bit to ease the pain.
"laiya are you okay?" he asked.
"yeah." i saw his face. "i promise" i said.
he carried on kissing me, and i moved my legs apart to make room for him. he started to move. it felt better. a lot better. amazing, in fact. i started to moan. my usual 'try to speak but moan instead' disease came back. but i didnt even mind.
this was euphoric. i had lost my virginity to the boy i loved. and he loved me too.
"danny i n-" i tried to say. but guess what?
"ahHAA" i said instead. smart.
"what? are you okay laiya?" he said, slowing down. i couldnt take it.
"it just hurts." i said, sighing. i looked away and shut my eyes. a tear escaped. he pulled out. i was shocked by the empty feeling that came after.
"i dont want to hurt you." he said, and just carried on kissing me. i remembered danny telling me he wasnt a virgin one time.
"who did you lose it to?" i asked, opening my eyes. he stopped.
"this girl. she wa-" he stopped. he looked at me.
"are you sure it wont ruin things?" he said. what? who could it have been?
"it wont, dont worry" i said.
"elysia." he said.
woah. i wasnt expecting that. but you know what? he rejected her. if he loved her still, he would have left with her earlier. i wasnt in the mood for questions. they can wait.
"okay" i said, and went to sit up to kiss him.
"ahhH" i gasped before i could stop myself. it hurt like hEck. i looked down. the sheets gabi had just put on were soaked in blood. oh shit.
"am i on my period?" i asked myself.
"no, its normal to bleed on the first time" danny reassured me. "i'll just come down to you" he said, and his lips pressed against mine.
