Freshman Year

1-8|Back From Winter Break

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."
-Dolly Parton
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Wednesday 
Outfit:
Today I'm wearing a black high neck tank top, a bluish-gray fuzzy jacket, high waisted jeans, white Nike Air Force 1's, a white Pura Vida bracelet, a clear Lokai bracelet, and a wave bracelet.

School started back up yesterday, on Tuesday. I finished my book and it was really good. My skin cleared up a little bit. I'm now in study hall instead of Health. It's my first time ever having a study hall and it's weird.

Tomorrow I have a Geometry quiz where I can either write out all these things about a parallelograms or I can draw diagrams. I'm going to do the diagrams. (sorry for the rushed sentences. these things just aren't super important and I just need to vent about the other stuff that's happened.)

Okay, so yesterday during lunch. Chloe now has A lunch since her schedule changed so she's gone. So Olivia, Clara, and I were the only ones left. We decided to sit with our other friends: Paige, Ella, Reagan, Lana, and some other girls. So we sat down with them and they gave us a look. Not a good look. And we were like, "Can we sit here because it's only us three?" Then they were like no. (I thought they were my friends. Haha guess not.) So I said could we just pull up an extra chair at the head of the table because we're allowed to do that since we were a seat short.

Then us three are sitting with them and then all of them get up and leave. Like everyone is sitting and you see all of them stand up at once and just leave us three. Embarrassing. It also kinda hurt that they ditched us. Like, imagine your friends just ditching you. Yah and so then Talia decides to come and stay and sit with us. So it was us four.

Now today at lunch they all took their table back and Talia decided to sit with the others. So we sat at the table down 1 left 1 from them. Just us three. Alone. Us three aren't super talkative and outgoing people so yah. It was kinda awkward sitting at this table meant for over double the amount of people we had.

So today during Choir (8th period which is after lunch) I asked Lana and Reagan if they wanted to sit with us tomorrow. Then Reagan was all sassy and was like no. She goes I don't want to sit in the middle of the lunchroom. I was thinking we don't sit in the middle of the lunchroom and plus this is basically where we sat in middle school. Lana didn't say anything. I just love my friends.

Then today at cheer we had to do stunts with different stunt groups because some of the girls will be gone because they have a meet tomorrow. We have a girls basketball game tomorrow. So I was in a stunt group with Mia, Reagan, and Natalie (coach's daughter). Which is my old stunt group from middle school. So ever since middle school Mia has always blamed me for things that go wrong in stunts. Like she never is at fault nor are the other girls. Obviously, sometimes I am the one who messes up but so do they.

Today she blamed my hair for "being in the way." When it wasn't. Like what? It was because she didn't catch Reagan's feet in time. So, of course, the coach was listening. Mia's just always blames stuff on me and it just gets old.

I told my Mom and then she went on about how I need to stick up for myself and a bunch of other stuff in a mean tone. And I was just like okay then this is why I never tell you things that happen.

It just feels like I don't have any real friends. Like even my best friend isn't really. If someone else comes along the way I just get shoved to the side. I don't even know if I have a best friend because half the time I'm not her best friend. I'm not a very social person so I'm just stuck where I'm at.