Samaniego Side Story 3: Missed Miss Missy

Missed 6

Regrets ~

Days went on like a flash. Di ko man lang napansin na ilang araw at linggo na ang lipas mula nang huli kong nakita ng personal si Vairel Samaniego. I never expected comfort in him because basing in his outside appearance, he looks like someone who is cold and someone who doesn't care much. Pero tama nga talaga ang kasabihang 'don't judge the book by it's cover' because the moment I took a step to know him, was also the moment I realized that there's so much more in him.

"We really make stupid decisions sometimes not because were too stupid but because we're not too stupid to take the risks." I remember him saying when I told him my story. I never thought I could open up to someone, aside from my bestfriend. It felt so good, telling him the loneliness and pain and everything. Akala ko nga ay pagtatawanan niya ako dahil ang tanga ko but he was just there, listening... and he only spoke when I was finish.

He was right. Not because we made a stupid decision, doesn't mean that we're stupid. Minsan ay hindi tayo ganun ka-stupid para magtake ng risk. And risks doesn't always result to our decision made. Kasi kahit alam natin kung alin ang mas maayos in the future, we always tend to choose what is beneficial for our present.

"I was not lost. I was hidden." Vairel is a kind of person who has tons of skeletons in his closet, yun ang napansin ko sa kanya. His eyes tells a story but his words are confusing. One second I see him sad, then the next one, I can feel his anger.

There are people, when they are too inlove, who lose themselves. Nakakalimutan nilang pahalagahan ang mga sarili nila dahil sa pagmamahal nila sa iba. I was not lost. I was hidden. Vairel's words enlightened me with something. Noon, akala ko ay ang tao, kapag nasobrahan sa pagmamahal ay nawawala sa sarili, pero mali pala iyon. People don't lose themselves in the process of loving someone, they tend to hide the real them just to fit in and to be enough to someone. Mas pinipili nilang itago ang tunay nilang nararamdaman kasi pakiramdam nila doon magtatagal.

"I'll be in the Philippines tomorrow in the evening. I'll just message you about my arrival. Take care of the boys." It was Big boss. He's talking to Seojin and Ruk while I was pacing out while looking at the huge glass window in front of me. The airport isn't too crowded. Mukhang ku-konti lang ang tao ngayon unlike the usual.

The three of them continued talking while I continued looking outside the huge window. I can see the huge planes outside and I am excited to ride one again. Nasa tabi ko si Seul at Sunny na ready na rin sa flight namin ngayong gabi. We're just waiting for our flight dahil kumpleto na ang staffs na kakailanganin namin para sa concert.

"I'm hungry." Lahat kami ay napatingin sa nagsalita. Agad na may inabot na chocolate bar si Seul kay JK kaya natahimik ulit kami. It's been 2 hours since we arrived here in the airport and it's been 2 hell-ish hours too since I've been ignoring stares from Agust. Kanina pagdating ko ay nandito na sila. Sinalubong niya agad ako nang mga nagbabagang titig niya na pilit kong iniiwasan.

"Sisa-noona, do you think we can go to your place?" Napalingon ako kay Bwii na siyang nagtanong. He was sitting beside me, katabi niya naman si Joon na katabi si Jinji. The others are sitting in front of us and they are now giving us their full attention.

"No. You'll be very busy." Sagot ko sa kanya. It is true. Kahit na gustuhin nilang mamasyal ay hindi magiging madali. People knows them. A lot of people does at ang lumabas habang nasa concert schedule ay isang malaking sakit ng ulo.

"Oh." Yun lang ang sinabi ni Bwii tsaka umayos na ng upo. I noticed all of them being tired. Siguro ay dahil na rin sa puspusan na ang naging ensayo nila netong nakaraan.

"Sisa." Napatingin ako sa gawi ni Big Boss nang tawagin niya ako bigla. Agad akong tumayo tsaka lumapit sa kanya nang makitang hindi na siya kausap nina Ruk at Seojin.