Samaniego Side Story 3: Missed Miss Missy

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Sisa ~

I remained silent while watching Vairel sleeping soundly in the hospital bed. He snapped. Naipikit ko ang mga mata ko at hinaplos ang tiyan ko na kanina ay medyo kumirot nang aksidente akong maitulak ni Vairel.

"I'm really sorry about what he did, Sisa." I smiled at Ashton. Kanina kasi, habang nag-uusap kami ni Vairel ay naitulak niya ako. Kamuntikan na akong matumba dahil sa lakas nun, mabuti na lang ay nakahawak ako sa cabinet. Zander came to rescue but I said it was fine. Vairel WAS diagnosed with depression in an early age kaya naiintindihan ko ang inaakto niya. I've dealt with people like him and I come to understand them more. Their emotions, hindi madaling dalhin, kasi takot sila. Grabe ang takot na nararamdaman nila.

"It's okay, Ash. He was just scared." With what he's dealing right now? Kahit sino ay matatakot. Nagkataon lang may history si Vairel ng depression kaya hindi niya nadala ng maayos ang problemang kinakaharap niya.

"I already talked to Fely earlier, I hope they make up. I feel sorry for the two of them." I hear Maurice sighed in agreement with what I said. Sana lang talaga ay mging maayos na ang lahat ng 'to. Vairel agreed to stay here in the hospital, hindi para kay Fely pero para magpagaling, he needs treatment. Madali lang naman iyon dahil hindi naman malala ang lagay niya. He just needs some proper understanding. Magiging maayos din siya.

"Thank you, Sisa." Napalingon ako lay Ashton nang marinig ko ang sinabi niya. Thank you? Why is he thank me?

"Para saan?" Nagtataka kong tanong sa kanya. May nagawa ba akong maganda?

"For so many things. I honestly don't know what to do with Aire when he snapped. Noon pa, wala akong nagawa kapag nagkakaganyan siya. Nasanay kasi akong malakas at matapang siya." napatitig ako kay Ashton. It must've been hard for him. He's the eldest after all, kahit na walang magsabi sa kanya ay alam kong nakakaramdam siya ng responsibility to look after his younger cousins. Ganun naman ata talaga, e. Parang may tahimik na rule na dapat ay siya ang mag-alaga sa kanila.

"Being with him amidst all of these, it's enough, Ash. With people like him, it's very important to be with other people. People they trust. Minsan kasi, yun lang ang kailangan natin. We don't even need anyone to talk to, just someone who's with us. Safety. Security. The want to feel needed." Ibinalik ko ang tingin ko sa natutulog na si Vairel. Alam kong yun ang kailangan niya ngayon. He's fighting with something only him can defeat. Ang kailangan lang niya ay ang suporta namin.

"He's already troubled since we were kids, we all went through a hard time when their mom, Tita Vareen died. We all got over it, but he stayed there. It was scary seeing him sad while smiling." I can imagine the things Ashton is saying. Vairel, laughing and smiling but his eyes, showing every emotions but happiness. I can't help but to feel pity towards him, I lost my parents early as well, kaya naiintindihan ko siya, pero iyong mawala ang nanay mo habang nasa tabi mo, ang sakit nun.

"Maybe that was his way of moving on? Breaking himself." I bitterly said. May mga tao kasing ganun, yung sinasaktan nila ang sarili nila para makalimot. Para makapag move forward. When he said he liked me, I was so tempted to tell him that I like him too, aminado kasi ako, e. I really liked him since the first time I saw him. Pero hindi ko iyon ginawa. Kasi alam kong masasaktan ko lang siya. I can't stay with him just because I like him, a relationship takes so much more that a mere liking. At alam kong darating ang panahon na magmamahal siya, higit pa sa gusto na nararamdaman niya sa akin. Kaya nang nalaman ko ang tungkol kay Felise, hinayaan ko siyang gamitin ako. I knew he was using me, my name and our closeness to make her jealous.

"Do you think he can still surpass this? Fely, she's fighting... but she's already weak. I don't know if he can still handle if she.. she dies." Napayuko ako sa sinabi ni Ashton. Nang nilingon ko naman si Maurice ay nakahawak lang siya sa sentido niya. This is all hard for them. Sino bang hindi mahihirapan? Pinsan, e. Mahalaga, e. Mahal. Hindi ko rin alam, hindi ko alam kung makakaya niya kapag nawala si Fely. He's too in love with her and that's hard. Pero sana ay malampasan niya. Kahit para sa sarili niya.