Killer attitude//Ruel

Chapter 15: pressed

-Madi's POV-

I looked at Ruel with burning cheeks. He looked at me but it was clear he was deep in thoughts. He looked up at me and smiles slightly. His smile was contagious, I smile back at him.

"I'm going to nap now- you are free to go." Grace interrupts ruel and i's back and fourth smiles.

"Okay I'll text Kayla to let her know-" i say and grace nods before closing her eyes.

She must be exhausted, She was so brave- if I were in her position I would have outbursts and breakdowns. I simply wouldn't cope. It hurts knowing someone close to you might not live longer than you, that they'll leave you with this horrible feeling of mourn but I was proud of her, she was fighting it and maybe she won't leave me with those horrible feelings. I can't imagine Kayla if anything happen but we had to say positive and keep encouraging grace.

I text Kayla and I look at Ruel.

"So where to?" I ask.

"Let's go get lunch." He smiles.

We start walking out and he walked super fast, really eager to get out of here. What's the deal with him? We walk along the pathway- there was a silence that grew awkward.

"What about here? We can eat while we look out to the ocean-" he says calmly.

My eyes widen at ocean. I almost forgot there was a beach here, mainly because I wanted to forget, forget everything about the ocean and that day.

"Uh- I ok." I say- I couldn't tell him that I hated the idea.

I hated the thought but I wanted to spend time with him and I completely pushed aside that for him. Oh Madi if you keep caring this much you'll get hurt.

"Okay you sit here and I'll go order us some food." Ruel says before walking away.

I sit down, sand blows on my toes. I flinch and pull my legs up to my chest.

"Stop being such a pussy Madi!" I try being stern with myself.

I couldn't even touch sand all because of the memories that flood me. The water yes I hated and was scared of but the ocean I was petrified. I hate the sight of it, all the crushing waves that tried to trap me and all the blue water that filled my lungs.

"I got the fooddd." Ruel beams and sits beside me.

"Uh yay." I try give the same energy back but I failed with the lump in my throat.

"Are you okay?" He ask.

His bright hazel eyes searches mine.

I've been so vulnerable around him lately. The strong exterior I built was getting down by him so easily. Each smile, each look, each word he said were enough to make my vulnerability wall come crashing down. I guess I was getting comfortable around him to show him who I really was. But who I am. Am I just some emotionally broken girl or am I some girl who feared the ocean? Maybe I'm both.

"Madi?"

"Sorry, It's just I don't like the ocean. Like at all!" I blurt.

"Why didn't you say so before? I wouldn't want to force you to stay were you weren't comfortable." He sweetly replies.

"I don't know- I- I kinda wanted to uh spend time with you." I say.

Oh Madi what happened to deciding to be friends with him?! I didn't just say that! Wow I never thought I would be so caught over a guy.

He doesn't answer, he just looks at me.

"I shouldn't have said that. Sorry." I look down.

"Don't be sorry. I was just taken back- Madi I only stayed at the hospital so I could be with you." He says a little awkwardly making it extremely cute.

"You did?" I blush.

"I- I like you Madi, a lot-" he says even more nervous.

-Ruel's POV-

Finally it was out. I told her and honestly I didn't have a clue what to expect next. What was I going to do now? It's not like I was a good boyfriend to have- I'm dying for fucks sake. But I'm always glad I told her. As much as I tried to deny it but I've always had a soft spot for Madi Carson. She was always the centre of my attention- it was getting harder and harder to hide my feelings. Even though I was always  flirtatious with her- I still found myself trying to hide all my stares, smiles, compliments and sexual tension from her.

"I- like you too." She blushes.

Gosh she had the cutest blush ever. Looking at her was an indulgence. Just how everything about her seemed to make me like her more. Fuck what am I going to do now? I only had one idea

"But I think we should just be friends." I say.

"Ruel you can't fucking do that. We both just said we liked each other, you said it first why say it if we are just going to pretend it doesn't exist?!" She says half yelling.

I understand where she was coming from but this was me helping her.

"I just- I like you but-"

"Not enough to date. I get it- it's not like I wanted to date anyways." She cuts me off angry.

You could she didn't mean it. Madi always said things she didn't mean when she was angry or ticked off.

"No Madi it's not-" I cut myself off by cupping her face and connecting our lips.

I'm digging myself into a bigger hole but it was too late to back out plus I didn't want to.

We disconnect our lips and look at each other. Eyes filled with lust and our lips waiting for the feel again.

We quickly pressed our lips back together. Our lips moved in unison and I could finally taste her sweet lips. Butterflies rushed through me as her soft lips kept dancing with mine.

What will happen next?

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