Killer attitude//Ruel

Chapter 18: dying

We drove back to mine and luckily mum was still awake.

"Mum we found this dog- abandoned I think." I walk inside while Ruel waited outside with the dog.

"Are you sure it's not just lost?" She asks.

"It was tied to the fence- I'm sure it's not lost." I sigh.

"Bring it inside and I'll take it to work tomorrow." She smiles.

I nod and run back outside to Ruel.

"You are so fucking adorable!" Ruel says to the dog.

Him holding a cute dog was probably the best I've laid my eyes on.

"I know I am." I playfully joke.

"Oh haha you're more than adorable- I mean mhm what did your mum say?" He smiles at the dog.

"She said she'll take it to work with her tomorrow. Now come inside- it might be hungry." I say.

Ruel nods and walks inside.

"Maybe we should stop calling it 'it'." Ruel chuckles slightly.

"I reckon it's a girl!" I jabber.

"No Madi that's a boy dog." Mum says.

I grab buddy bowl and pour some dog food in it. I put it in front of the dog.

"I'm going to bed- you know what to do Mads. Goodnight!" Mum smiles while walking up the stairs.

"Night." I continue watching the dog eat.

"Goodnight." Ruel smiles.

Both our attentions soon wonder down to the little dog quietly eating his food. We sat backs against the couch and I turn to him.

"We need a name for him." I beam.

"He's not ours Madi- he might have to leave us soon." He shrugs.

"Yeah butttt I want to name him because he can't leave us nameless." I pout.

"Okay fine- now stop pouting. What about caramel?" Ruel suggests.

"No that's too basic. What about something like? Hm billy?" I smile big.

"Why did you get billy? But I like it." He smiles.

"Smart brain you know- okay we got it. Billy Carson." I nod to myself.

"That's not fair- Billy Carson-Van Dijk." He smirks.

Billy jumps onto my lap.

"I think he likes it. He's my little baby." I stroke Billy's head.

"Our little baby- I mean- like- I- uh-"Ruel stutters.

"Ruel it's fine. Our little billy!" I giggle.

"Our little billy." He smiles.

Isn't life strange? So many boys want to date me but the only one I take interest in doesn't. I respect him for whatever he thinks he's protecting me from but I in love with Ruel Van Dijk.

I stare at his bright hazel eyes. One look from them and it fills you with what you're missing. Last week I was angry after class and then he looked at me. Instantly I was calm and it overthrow my anger.

"I should get going. I'll see you tomorrow." He gets up and I hold my hands out.

He grips onto them and pulls me up. Pulls me a little too close. We just stand there-

"You're even prettier close up." Ruel smiles.

"I don't know what to say-" A heat flushes my cheeks.

"I don't want to say anything but-"

I cut him off by pressing by lips against his. We pull away and unable to contain ourself, he pulls me into a fiery and passionate kiss. My hands work around his body and stops on his neck. I pulled him down since he was so tall. I run my fingers through his hair and his hands travel down my body.

He pulls away and stares at me.

"I should go. We're supposed to be just friends." He pants.

"Ruel I can't be just friends with you because I l-" I try to speak but my breathing was heavy.

"Don't say it Madi." He cuts me off and closes his eyes.

I cup his face.

"I love you." I sniff with my eyes going all watery.

"Madi I can't- I'm sorry." He pulls away.

"It's fine if you don't feel the same." I nod reassuringly.

"That's not what it is Madi! I love you too but-" he bites his lip and exhales loudly.

"What wrong? What's going to hurt me?! Come on let me!" I pressure him.

"I'm going to hurt you- I already am." He shakes it head.

"No there's more to it- how are you going to hurt me? What wrong?!" I beg.

"What's wrong? What's wrong is that I'm fucking dying!" He spits out.

What will happen next?