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Hey guys!!

Just wanted you all to know that I might be absent here for a while and there might be a lack of updating for a while.

I've been lacking the motivation to do anything lately and I've also been really stressed and while writing usually calms me and makes me feel less stressed it just isn't working at the moment because I feel like people are constantly expecting more and sometimes I just can't give that to them.

I'm not entirely sure what's happening with me at the moment but I know that for the past month or so I've been like this and I'll just suddenly start crying from the stress and I'll break down.

I even cry for no reason, I was listening to I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance and I just started sobbing, I sobbed through the whole song and it really made me realise how far I've let this come before acknowledging it.

I've been destroying myself over who knows what.

Maybe it's that I don't have something to look forward to, maybe it's the stress, maybe it's the fact that people keep expecting me to know the answers to things that I just simply don't know.

I don't know what I'm doing tonight.

I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow.

I don't know what I'm doing next week.

I don't know what I'm doing when I leave school.

I don't know what I'm doing when I grow up.

I don't even know what I'm doing right now.

All I know is that this has got to stop. I'll see you guys in a week or so. Maybe I'll be better by then.