Young and Pregnant

Ch.11 Blade & Faint.

As I wake up in Jake chest , it felt so comfortable that I could stay here forever! Why does he make me feel like this ? I look up at him , he so adorable when he asleep that I just planted a kiss on his chin.

Wow , he warm damn .

I'm not sure if I should tell him about the baby ? Should I tell him on the date that supposedly he going to take me or should i just keep it to my self for awhile. Wait , should I go to the date ? I mean I found he single .. so why not ? But I can't be around greasy food or things like that so .. I'm going to say I'm a vegetarian. It 4:30 in the morning and I wake up at 6. I guess I'll just savor this moment with him and in his arm in my bed.

*JAKE P.O.V*

The kiss on my chin awoke me .. So I know she awake , but I'm still going to pretend I'm asleep , her small face on my chest feel so heavenly . I had a wonderful dream about her , that she got pregnant , and she look beautiful when having the baby and when the baby is born is my child and I can have a beautiful family with her and be married to her and seeing my little kids running around the small room. That life would be perfect , I would get to sleep with her any day and everyday... Get to wake up and see her face right next too me , I get to protect her ! I would never ever want to see her kissing another guy. Talking about kissing another guy .. I got to find out who did she kiss ?

I was so heated that I could kill anyone at that moment. I'm scared , I'm scared to be in a relationship ... I remember my last one ... nope not even going to try to remember it ... Then I'll start to shake and sweat ... Fuck I'm sweating .

" Jenna .. Are you awake ? " I can't believe I'm waking her up at 5:30 in the morning .

*yawns* " yeah , why ..? Is something wrong ? " Jenna say sleepy.

" Uhm .. Yes uh no , I mean I got to go the bathroom that all and I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up so early " I say not looking at her .

" Oh is fine , don't worry and the bathroom is right next door ok ? "

So , I get up to go to the bathroom. Mane , why did I have to to thinking about my fucking past .. It ruined me and now it can't no more ! Ugh so I see a razor blade ... I look at my self in the mirror and tears start to come out of my eyes,again. I get the razor blade and break it .. so I can get the blade out.

I'm looking at it for awhile .. I grab it and slide it on my wrist ... Slowly first no blood yet .. just a scratch so far. This is why I hate my past , I hate it how I cant forget anything.. Without thinking I slide it and I start to bleed ... I didn't mean to cut my own self my hand just did. I fucking hate my self right know.

I'm trying to find a bandage and I can't fine none .. Uh Yess I found one !Good is a big one , after I put the razor in the toilet and pee and then flush.I wash my face.Fuck this hurt,but I feel better all my pain going through that .. that ... damn what am I going to say to Jenna ? She going to start being curious.I don't want her to know , I don't cause then she going to start feeling sad for me ! I GOT to be strong , as I look at my self I wash my face again .. and take my shirt off since I'm sweating , a lot .

I'm going to be shirtless for awhile .. As I walk out the bathroom I find Jenna sound asleep .. Wow she really tired. But look beautiful asleep , just like an angle .. I walk to the bed and slowly lay down. She suddenly grabs ahold on my waist and her head on my chest quick , fuck I like this girl so much.

* JENNA P.O.V *

I saw him come in shirtless , wow he fucking hot then I saw something on his wrist ... Which made me curious . But I'll ask him later as he slowly laying down trying not to wake my I quickly hold on to him and lay on skin chest ... his abs feel so good.

I quickly look at the clock it finally 6:30 .. I'm going to wake up go to the bathroom really quick.

As I get up from him .. he smiling and looking at me as I leave the room. I smile at him.. Gosh he perfect.

I stare at the mirror .. I look at my self I'm in a good mood really good mood until I found blood on my sink .. I wash my teeth really quick and pee I want to know what happen.what if .. I have so many 'what ifs' in my brain that all of the sudden it just made me throw up.

I quickly go to the toilet .. I hear the door open quickly and Jake grab a hold on my hair and I threw up again. Gosh why me .. why right know ..

I finally stop and flush the toilet.. I sit on down on the floor the same place all weak . I couldn't move I feel like I was going to pass out until I actually did pass out .. it all went black in my head .

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