her coffee

2020.01.04

This year is off a great start. YEAH WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. So I was at a different café, with my classmate. Btw I was in my hometown. So you know, we talked, got to know each other, she showed me some band, everything was chill until someone walked through that door. No, it wasn't Adeline, it was one of the worst people in this town, maybe even in the world. I should probably stop being so dramatic but what can I do about that. Anyways I felt my whole body freeze. I stayed in my place, it felt like time has stopped. My friend asked what's wrong. It felt like my vocal cords have been ripped out and my mouth is glued together. I didn't feel like me anymore. Only his cold stare made me feel like this. He was with his girlfriend. She was a bitch not gonna lie. But they were made for each other because the only thing they love; is making people feel shit about themselves. He and his little squad of friends completely destroyed me. They spread rumors about me. Tried having a threesome with me or in another way: almost raped me. They were always watching my every move, every breath I took. I was their oxygen, their drug. It felt like they couldn't live without me. Obviously, I was their favorite victim. It's fine. I understand. I knew he texted his puppets about me if they're still alive. It was getting dark. I got scared. Because last time I went home when it was dark; it was around 11 pm., it was a beautiful summer night. I went out with my friends to enjoy our free time and probably last summer together. I heard laughs behind me. I ignored them and started walking quickly to my house. I heard them chasing me. Gladly I was fast enough; I punched one of them with my elbow. There were more of those shitheads. I was wearing; jeans and a thin sweater and a bralette underneath. I understand it was easy to tear my clothes apart. But that was my favorite sweater! With all my strength left, I ran to the nearest shop. The cashier was nice enough to accompany me to my house. So absolutely I didn't want this to happen again. Good shit, I was with someone at least. I went to a bathroom, and called Bub to pick Patria and me, and asked her to stay for the night. In the morning we will go back on a train. Bub was the sweetest, I would die and live for her.