A Flair For The Dramatic

18. kick me

Kellin's pov

It's been a year since the mincraft with everyone started and somehow we still play it. Of course we change worlds but yeah..

I've been distant.. more than usual. I definitely dont talk on the headset anymore. No, my home life is worse. After a moment of talking to vic in school I realized he took intrest in me so I stopped talking to him.

I'm lonely but I deserve it..

I stopped trying to hide how uncomfortable it is to talk to people and now I full on ignore people and avoid everything that could require me to talk. Screaming and yelling goes through my walls and I turn up my volume up more. Even on full blast I can hear them.

I just want to end everything..

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Oliver's pov

As I hold Josh's hand as we walk around in the mall he keeps letting go are almost pretending I'm not here. But it's only when we see people we know that go to our college.

It hurts..

However I love him and he's the best I'll ever get. I'm a fucked up guy, nobody going to like me more than Josh does. Like... love? No.. it's kind of obvious he doesn't love me but it's okay my love is enough for both of us.

I think..

When he rips his hand away from mine as he sees someone we know I say the stupidest thing ever. "Dont care about them care about me!" I shout grabbing his hand.

"Fucking faggot," he says yanking his hand away and back handing me across the face. I feel small and hurt as I look into his angry eyes. I swallow hard and wipe the tears that are trying to escape.

"I-I'll be in the car," I tell him weakly and walk away. Why do I love him so much?

Everybody is hhhhhhhh

Is it bed I'm hiding in my room because I'm wearing a skirt and dont want to be judged for my hairly legs?

Oop do you hate me yet?

Oh shit, I cant post this bc my dad unplugged the wifi bc I didn't clean the whole house...