A Flair For The Dramatic

38. innocent eyes

Kellin's pov

I'm mad.

Annoying.

Frustrated.

How could Vic burn himself? He doesn't deserve that. I don't understand, he so happy? He's not happy?

That hurt, like, fuck. I've never burned myself before and I can definitely say it hurts way worse than cutting. I think I'm going to cry. I'm not use to seeing someone in pain.

I rush into the bathroom shutting the door and sliding down it with closed eyes. The sound of water is soothing- water? I open my teary eyes and gasp. Oliver is taking a shower naked!

He's looking at me with a concern look and my eyes accidentally go down. He's not coving himself or anything. My face I completely red and I stand up and look into his eyes. He turns off the water and runs his hand through his hair.

Why haven't I left already?

"Why are you crying?" He ask grabbing a towel and wrapping it around himself. I'm so shocked and mesmerized that I can't do anything.

Tears are now falling but it like someone got all my feelings and mixed them up. I'm sad that vic burned himself. I'm mad that he's not happy. Im scared he'll hurt himself more. I'm happy Oli is so nice. Embarrassed that I'm in a small room with a sexy, wet, naked man. That also turns me on. But I'm crying.

His wet hot hands rest on my shoulders as he looks into my eyes. Yesterday we kissed. "W-what?" I ask forgetting what he said.

"Why are you upset? Did something happen?" He asks and my eyes go to his wet chest and then to his eyes. He looks serious and worried. I literally cant think with him this close to me naked. He has a towel but I saw him naked so in my mind he still is naked.

"I- I burned myself?" I say not thinking as I look at his everything. Fuck he's so hot.

"What? Where?" He says and before I can do anything hes shoving both of my sleeves up. He frowns looking at my wrists. 

"O-oli," I gasp and he pulls me into a hug. Sad, surprised, horny, and embarrassed are weird feelings to have at once. I hug the hot, wet, man back touching his back gently. He's more fit than I expected.

"Why did you burn yourself?" He ask pulling me away and looking at me sternly like I'm in trouble.

"Vic was burning himself.. so I burned myself in front of him to see how it made me feel so maybe he would stop.." I mumble.

"Baby, that's not how you deal with that.." he says making me upset again.

"You dont know that, you have no say in this. You dont know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night wanting the blade-" I stop talking when he looks away sad. Does he? I look at his tattooed wrists not getting a good look.

"Yeah, I do.. Mitch made me promise to try not to hurt or kill myself. I use to have a really bad addiction to hurting myself. I use to think of ways to kill myself all day every day but that more or less stopped when I saw how it affected him.. I don't break promises so I've been clean for a year... I've had a few slips but I've been keeping the promise.. I'm trying. You just need to promise to try.. same with vic," he says and I can tell this is a touchy topic.

"When I stop I get.. really suicidal... I don't want to accidentally k-kill myself," I mumble and he kisses my forehead and hugs me again. I hug back and we stay like that for a while.

"Oh.. I'm sorry. I didn't know you were in here," I say pulling away red faced. "I just came in here to cry and didnt really pay attention," I say laughing nervously.

"Its okay love, I'm glad you did. You shouldn't cry alone. No matter what I'm doing I'll stop for you," he says and I smile a little.

"Thank you," I say meaning it.

"Um.. I'll let you get dressed. Um, Goodnight Oli," I mumble.

"Goodnight," he tells me and I almost smack into the door. Smooth kellin.. smooth.. He chuckles at me and then I open the door. I slip out and close him in it.

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Welp, you've made it this far into the story. I'm proud of you XD

This story is such a mess