Rye's POV
Here he was ,
sitting all alone
On a table for two , and here I am behind the glass door , scared to approach him .
just few steps away from him .
The Longing of five years , finally hitting in . Should I be happy , or guilty because I'm actually thinking of thousand ways to turn and run away .
He kinda looked older ? I mean he should , it's been five years after all . But more like tired , as if all those years left a scar on his once young beautiful face , and turned him in a big old man .
What should I call him ? Dad . Ofcaurse not , I left , for a lot . Should I call him father , but then it's the same thing . Maybe just turn away and be a coward then avoid everything .
NO Ryan , remember running from your problems won't help you , you should face them . I should face them .
Opening those glassey doors , that once I was standing behind facing my fears , and made my way to the small oak table at the corner in the end of the small Italian restaurant .
Sitting apposite to him without saying a word was hard , but what's harder is actually looking into his wrinkled , tired eyes .
Why ? wasn't his choice to leave me all alone , why he look like that then . Is he even looking like that because of me ? I couldn't avoid his eyes , because they were simply filled with something weird , maybe love ? Concern .
"Look son-" He started sighing , for once I listened to his voice in real life and not a stupid phone call . He sounded almost in pain . Almost .
As if he wanted to cry , but don't want to . Desperately trying to hold his breath , just so it doesn't crack .
Where's the man that once disowned me ?
Where's that tough face and rough voice that would make you fear your life . Is that even him , is that even dad ? But then I met this simple word sink in 'son' .
'Goodnight son'
'Goodnight daddy'
NO , no it's not time for flashbacks no .
"It's Ryan" I didn't let him complete his sentence . It was as if I didn't want to hear that word come out of his mouth . At all . It was so dangerous to just through it like that .
"Okay Ryan" he corrected , then swallowed the gulp in his mouth then continued "I-I , I really don't know where to start you know" he let out a pathetic chuckle , full of shame . He was in shame .
Wanting to go easy with him and help him through the whole 'meeting' I said "How's the twins , you know I think they've grown" I said letting out the same chuckle he let before .
"They miss you , you know" He told me looking straight into my eyes , maybe me . " They still ask about you . And everynight they'd demand a story of your adventures , which were never ending ." He continued making me feel more guilty .
Trying to change the subject , I tried to open up about the flaws in our lovely 'family' and said "Any news about Robbys' so called runway" Looking at his chocolate eyes deeply , he shook his face as if I understand nothing and he does .
"He's back" he said nodding as if making it abovoise . "For a whole five years , from the day you left he never left our side Ryan." He continued .
It can't be . Right ?
Then why even the community is in my name . Didn't they HAD to do it cause I'm the only hire left . Or not ?
It seems to be a questioning myself night so far . But you. can't blame me though , it's as if there was some kind of a cover , covering the whole truth , and now it's gone ...
"Look I just need you to help me with something , then everything would go back to normal okay" I said , making him shake his head no slowly .
"NO Ryan not now , not again . Look your mother missed you , the twins , Robbie , just come back please" he said finally letting his guard down . That fucking guard of mine that won't get down , but for one person it would , and will for infinity of times .
"No , yo-you gahh , you don't understand" I said my voice trembling .
"Then let me . Let me understand rye" he said
"Dont you see , that neither do I understand dad" I said , tears runing down my cheeks . "Look , I-I just need you to do me a quick favour you know , you're not thinking straight , you don't want me back , it will open those fucking wounds and they would be fresh again . And then we'd need time to get over a-and ." I couldn't continue . How can I . Taking a deep breath , I found the perfect excuse . "You know I-I don't need that favor anymore" with that I stormed out of the Caffe .
I knew he followed me . I could hear his footsteps . But they are not the footsteps of my favourite person ...
"Look Ryan , Pease s-stop"
NO
I continued to walk faster .
"Please just listen"
They're is nothing to listen to , there is nothing to say anymore .
I can't be healed , I can't be fixed .
"Please I'll do you anything , just come home , just for once ."
With that . I stopped .
Anything .
As if I said that out loud .
He replied his statement "Anything" .
But then got down when he asked that question that been in his throat for a while now .
"What-Rye are you high ?" He asked .
Then in that exact moment I started laughing , laughing hysterically . "High" laughing more and more tell tears came out of my eyes I managed to say "you know what father I am high actually , I'm really high , I think I'll touch the sky you know" laughing at my own lame jock . "You know what I'm high on , My fucking emotions . He's everywhere dad . He don't wanna leave me alone , he's everywhere" I said now without laughing . Pure sadness , that what I was dealing with right now . Tears and tears runing down my cheeks , they didn't seem to stop .
"Who , who rye tell me I'll fucking kill them" he said in a serious tone .
Laughing at his thoughts I "but I love him daddy" with that every thing become black . Pitch black ...
I just want everything to stop hurting ... And it'll stop .
Soon .
TO BE CONTINUED...
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A/N : SoOn ...
HEY Beutiful people thanks for reading this chapter againnnn .
And it's 11:50 a.m here so Goodmorning ?¿
Anddddd I did a thing were I posted this chapter then after a month or so I edited it more (sry not Sry)
Okay just a quick emotional thank you for that freaking 15k reads . Cuz Like you know that's a big number ... for me :)
Anywaysssss A son and a father meating . How cute right ??
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