Andy's POV
when I opened the door of the room , I saw 3 guys . the 3 of them were slim and tall . they looked scary .
One of the guys -the brunette- tsked , the two other blondes only looked at me in disgust .
'you're disgusting'
shaking my head slightly , I made my way to the made bed and sat there without uttering a word .
the bed smelled bad , really bad . but who am I to whine about it , I should be gracefull for having a bed ... right ?
Looking up at the walls beside me , they were white , complete white , even though there was some cracks here and there , but again I shold be gracefull .
wondering what he's doing now ?
Is he asleep ?
wait-
is he eating well ?
oh no , what if he's not
You idiot ofcaurse he's eating good , his girlfriend is cooking for him !
idiot .
I can't cook tho , that's another thing she beat me with .
nooo , it's bad comparing people like that , she would be sad if she heard my thoughts right .
Ughhhh I'm an idiot !!!!
idiot
idiot
'idiot'
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Ryan's POV (Dan Dann Dannnn)
cigarette after cigarette ...
I've finished the whole packet .
I started with the other .
it's been 6 days and 23 hour , it's gonna be a week in less than an hour . and what've I done would you ask .
Nothing
completely nothing .
he's nowhere to be seen . Last time I've got an information about him was five days ago , he was in a hospital .
I've met Daniel (the doctor from 2nd chp Idk if I named him) again , but he won't tell me where he is , I begged alot , alot to the point where people started giving me weird looks , and I didn't give a single fuck !
I cried alot too , yep the famous Ryan Beaumont who never cries , cried alot
I didn't know if it was be cause of the heroin affecting my body or like me just crying over him .
wondering what he's doing now .
Is he eating properly ?
have he got Skinner ?
oh no he was really unhealthy last time , what if he got worse ?
wait have he met someone who really protected him .
I couldn't protect him , cause I was some horny guy , suffering from alcohol posing .
Goddd , I thought it was him all this time , but no it was she.
fucking bitch
whore
FUCK YOUU !!
getting tired from beating myself down , I just say on the floor , in the middle of the hallway . A bottle of whisky in my left hand , and a cigarette filled with heroin in the other .
He gave me all his trust , and I broke it.
hearing a knocking noise , I just stayed , I won't open the door , why would I . it's not him .
hearing another sound now , it was a key . wow someone have a key of my house without me knowing , cool .
turneds out it was Jack .
"You look like shit" he said blankly .
raising my head , he had red eyes .
"We can say the same to you" I said , not giving a single interest on why he's like that .
he took the cigarette from my hand , and sat beside me .
"You know you aren't the only one that have it rough mate" he said tearing up a little .
"Brook , he- we ... we broke up" he finally said.
Is it bad that give zero fucks ??
all I want is Andy
"he thinks we should take a break" he shaked his head . "He thinks he have feelings for Sonny , Sonny thinks too ... I think too" taking a long breath he continued "it hurts seeing them acting like a couple infront of me Rayan . it hurts , it really do" he finally finished , now full on sobbing .
all I could do was to bring him closer to me and hug him tightly . I didn't know if I did this to me , or him . Maybe both .
You see here , we be stuck with 'it hurts' but we never admit why.
Why it hurts so bad , that it feels like a thousand knives being torn into my chest ?
Why it hurts so bad that you feel so tired as if the whole weight of the world is on your shoulders.
why it hurts so bad that your heart feels as if it's being shattered into million pieces .
why it hurts so bad that you have no one to blame but yourself .
why ?
because I love him so much .
So much that it hurts so bad .
TO BE CONTINUED...
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A/N : hurts so bad .
heyy beautifull people thanks for reading again !!
Andd don't ask where the fuck all that came form , I'm depressed as fuck :))
I think I'll update a new chp of Call boy today .
anddd bitch I'm writing a new (depressed as fuck) story , but not gonna publish it now . I'll post it when I finish Little psycho... and that's a long time to go so yeah .
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