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Chp 18 : Save Me

Andy's POV

Time is a funny thing

Sometimes it feels like it is flying by , sometimes it feels like it's ripped away from you , and sometimes it feels like an eternity

It's been a month .

Yeah believe that a month

Complete 30 days !

I feel like I'm going crazy ...

Wait I am crazy !

I haven't even seen Elliot ever sense , I kinda miss him ... Like at least he was there when needed .

If you're wondering what happened to Rye . Well he's not here , he'll never be . But he's always here these days , in my mind . He didn't just cross my mind he lived in it . Sometimes I wonder how I'm gonna remain sane with everything I'm going through . Sure I wasn't injured like others , but some pain is more than being in a hospital bed . I just can't seem to accept the feeling of betrayal , maybe I'm in denial ...

But the thing I'm sure of , is me falling in a pool of paranoia , sinking down the bottom , drowning deep , I couldn't even breath . I'm sure what I'm seeing is not real , the flashbacks the nightmares . But what about the feelings were it real for him ...

Anyways , Adam's looks had only gotten worse , his eyes keep piercing into me . He'd even touch my thighs from under the table when he can , he'd also rub my cheeks alot and tell me how smooth and soft I am ... He kinda remind me of Rye , I need him in my life , he can replace him . But except the sparks , Ryan touch give me a wave of butterflies , Adam's touch burns , alot .

Ughhh I'm doing it again , comparing !! But like , Rye would do that , so it's not bad right ?

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His dirty hands where all over my thighs , going up and down , feeling me all ways . 'Don't make a sound' he told me , while putting his fingers on my lips . Pulling me from my waist down close to him roughly ."No one will know , what I'll do with you ... No one will ever know ... Ever" He kept whispering in my ears , reminding me with my misery . All I could think of is why me , I don't understand everything is happening because of her . I never asked for a life like this , I never asked to be even born . She was supposed to be in my place not me , she was supposed to be dealing with all this not me . She left and here I am paying for her own mistakes .

I tried not to make a sound I really did , but I couldn't he was so rough , pulling in and out of me , thruts become more and more violent . Tears formed in my eyes , my lip in my teeth , bitting hard .

What did I ever do ?

When all of this is gonna end .

And like that I let out a whimper . And if I thought he was rough , I'd be so wrong . His speed increased his thruts were rougher now . Why I had to be so pathetic , why did I make a sound !!

Then everything stopped . I opened my eyes to reality . I was sweating alot , I couldn't catch my breath . I was back in my old bed in the rehab .

No no no , it was a nightmare ? Or a flashback . I can't remember if it happened before ... I can't remember anything .

All I remember is me waking up in a hospital bed with Rye beside me , before that everything is blank .

Whyy me !!

Tears start pouring down my cheeks , I wasn't able to breath well .

Pathetic

'Whore'

'Don't make a sound'

No no no no .

And here when I felt like a mouse being trapped in a cage of a messed up life , though the cage is big , I can't but sit in the corner rocking hard with the feeling of anxiety engulfing me like water , it burned my lungs until I couldn't breath ...

Here when I realized , I didn't need him to help me ... I needed him to save me .

TO BE CONTINUED...
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668 WORDS

A/N : "I needed him to save me"

HEYY beautiful people thanks for reading again !!

And you know I'm dumb as fuck so I published the wrong chapter on an a accident but then deleted it :)

Don't ask what the fuck did I just wrote cuz I dont even know .

Anddd yeah this is me trying to write some deep shit and failing ...

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