Andy's POV
I wanted to brust in tears everything was falling apart .
I can't know what day it is , I can't know the time , I cant even know if it's night or day time .
I eventually stopped eating after knowing that I'll get nothing from it , it's not that they gladly let me go , they forced me to eat even if they had to shove it down my throat . It's not that I starve myself , I just never get hungry .
It didn't work tho , I still shove my own fingers in my throat till I throw up everything I ate before . I bet his girlfriend is skinny ...
But I still can't help but think that one day he'll come and engulfe me in his big arms to his chest and just hug me tightly .
Even if I blame him on everything that happened to me and will happen , I still wish he was here ...
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It's 11 a.m meaning 'Breakfast' , everyone made his way to the so called 'cafeteria' . I knew everyone was in pain , but some just hide their pain better than others .
'Mommy'
NO , no stop not now !!
Ughh if only I could stop this inner voice inside my head that always bring memories back .
After a couple of minutes a plate was infront of me . It look disgusting , I didn't even know what's in it , it looked like mashed potato ...
After a while everyone's plate were finished and mine was the only one untouched . The nurse looked at me then to my plate , she rolled her eyes and made her way to me .
"look you idiot , I have things to do , so you better open your mouth , get it" she said annoyed . I didn't even feel bad , ofcaurse at first my eyes would water a bit , but know I just feel nothing , what can you blame me , I'm used to this act 24/7 .
When I didn't do anything , she took a spoon full of whatever in the plate and took a rough hold of my cheeks , then pushed the spoon into my mouth , making me gag a bit .
And like that , half of the plate was finished now by doing the same process . Eventually she got tired or bored of torturing me , or both and stopped , which I was gald for .
After letting me go , I went straight to the toilet , and shoved my own fingers down my throat making me wince from the pain . It took alot of tries and alot of gags , but in the end I finally throwed whatever was in my stomach .
Making my way back to 'my room' I sat on the bed who's smell got worse over the days , and closed my eyes pretending to be asleep , eventually the darkness engulfed me , and I fell asleep ...
'Mommy what are you doing' I said in a small voice , Mom looked at me with wide eyes , and stopped the packing immediately .
'I-I I'm going away sweetie' she managed to stutter with tears running down her cheeks . NO why mommy is crying she can't cry she's my super hero , hero's don't cry right !?
'Mommy where are u going' I said as tears filled my eyes , not really understanding what's going on but just seeing her crying make me want to cry .
'I'm going away sweetie' . What ? how away , how far , when she's gonna come back ? what about daddy , he's gonna be mad and hit her again . Wait if she go away , he'll hit me instead , and she wont be here to protect me and close my wounds , and kiss them so they get better !
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I didn't say a thing , I couldn't find the words and just let a sob break . Daddy will hit me if he knew I cried that hard , cause I should be a man , and man's don't cry .
Mommy bent down to my hight and gave me butterfly kisses all over my face , and wiped my tears away .
"Maybe when u grow up you'll think I'm a bad mother , and how much of a failer I was at being a parent but I can't , I can't , I finally found someone an angel to survive me from this damn life , from the suffring the abuse the rape , I'm sorry . But maybe one day you'll found an angel too , and he'll servive you he'll be your savior and you'll be his , sorry" She finished , giving one last kiss on my cheek . Looking at me slowly examining me .
She took a deep breath and stood up quickly , held her bag and made her way to the door . It was then when realisation hit me , she's not coming back , I'll be stuck in her place as a replacemt .
My begs and sobs for her help didn't stop her from opening the door and sitting in that car . My shouting for her help didn't affect her .
In that moment she became only my mother , She was never a mommy , just a mother . A simple one who gave me birth and left me at only five , to take her suffer away from her .
NOOO !
Waking up I found myself in a pool of sweat . What's happening ? what was TAHT !! Was it a flashback , or it's just a dream .
It took me a while to get my breathing under control . When I finally did I pushed the sheets over me and curled in a ball making myself as small as I could . The only thing I was thinking of is why God , why it have to be me , what is the horrible thing TAHT I did ...
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A/N : Never a mommy ...
HEYY beautiful people thanks for reading againnn :))
So now I think the story is finally making somehow a sense if not then wait some more couple chapters and you'll eventually get it .
Anddd I did a thing were I deleted most of 'Call Boy' Chapters and I'm gonna rewrite them cuz I've got a good idea so yeah 😏😂 .
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