Little Psycho ➳ Randy ✓

Chp 24 : Numb

Happy New yearr / And happy birthday to me 😂✌
 
Ryan's POV

I had a dream

Maybe a nightmare ...

But it was beautiful , most of it was beautiful . He looked like an angel in disguise , no he was an angel . But then he disappeared and everything became ugly again . The colours drained , pastel colors turned into black ones , and again the hole in my heart expanded .

And here I am doing the same mistake I do every night without giving a care . It feels nice , the smell of it , the way it make my chest burn and my muscle twitch .

And then the best thing about it , was that it takes my mind of him . No it takes me right to him . I'd rather have the illusion of him over nothing .

It what's called the perfect match . More like heroin , ciggarets and alcohol .

Laying my back on the wall , I felt nothing , not weak not exhausted , I don't even feel broken anymore . I just feel nothing . Numb

And so in that exact moment , the door knob  turned and someone entered . Not bothering to look , I knew who it was . Jack .

He have been doing this recently where he come and sleep in my apartment everyday . I know it's not just because 'he need to take care of me' but something bigger , but I was way too far to ask him what's wrong .

  Jack looked at me for what felt like hours , but it was only seconds . Then he made his way to me , and sat on the floor , laying his back on the wall opposite to me .

The next thing he did shocked the hell out of  me , he removed the ciggaret from my mouth and put it in his .

I didn't even question it .

and just waited for him to open up for me .

"We broke up"

Oh

"He said he think he's c-catching feelings for some one else , a-and need to make s-sure if he still l-loves me"  He then took a deep breath and continued .

"Do you know h-how much it h-hurt to see him all in l-love with S-sonny " He finished with a shakey voice .

I'm sure I heard his voice crack , like a glass .

And for once I saw my best friend , with tears streaming down his cheeks .

Yep he was the one who told me a day ago 'I'm here no one would hurt you' when I was crying my eyes off . Tables really turn don't they .

And so I did the first thing that came to my mind . I pulled him by his wrist , and pulled him to my chest . And let him cry there .

I didn't tell him everything is gonna be okay , cuz I don't know if they'll be . No one knows .

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After hours of us laying on the floor , Jack fell asleep on my chest . I didn't mind it though , I knew he need it .

But then I felt vibrations , looking at my phone . It was ringing .

It wasn't there the surprise , I gladly picked the phone and hung up on the unknown number . But It ringed again , again and agian .

Picking the phone irritated , I didn't answer , I waited for the dork on the other line to say something .

And then to my surprise . A voice I didn't know I needed much said replied with a simple 'Ryan' .

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Yeah not that easy 😂✌
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Just keep scrolling 😂
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Father ?

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A/N : Is ThAt DaDdY ????

 It's my birthday !!

I kinda feel nothing you know .

Like I'm getting older !!

I don't want that . The fuckkk .

So yeah I'm offically 14 , so I can stop lying and telling everyone that I'm 14 when I was 13 :))

Hehe

oiii and Happy new year 💛💛

May you have an amazing yearr

2020 here we gooooooooo

(P.S: I need to stop drinking energy drinks)

Every single one of you made my 2019 better okayyyyy 💛💛💛😂