Shattered Thoughts

Poem: Why?

I thought things were going great so why?

I needed someone to listen when I cried.

Did I tell you something that you couldn't handle anymore?

Those stories I pulled from my core.

Why have you gone silent?

Did my life story hurt your innocence, we're my words too violent?

You said I could say anything.

Did you know most suicides happen in the spring?

You said you wanted to hear what I would say.

So what changed that day?

I thought you were good at listening so why?

I even told you about that guy.

Spilling my secrets like blood.

We're my words too heavy like a flash flood?

If you would have told me I would have gone quiet.

So how come your protesting with a silent riot?

Why you giving me this shit saying your phone broke?

Do you know how much it hurts when you treat my words like a stupid joke?

I thought you cared so why?

Did you think it was all a lie?

In the moments I spoke, truth was the only language my tongue knew.

So why are you telling me to give up too?

I want real advice.

Even though I've already tried to kill myself twice.

You try to tell me nice things.

But all I really want is to die and get my angel wings.

I thought you wanted the truth so why?

I stayed up all night telling you how much I just wanna die.

I told you how I hold the razor.

All you did was show your disfavor.

Is it so hard to care about someone like me?

I try to talk to you but my mind is always lost at sea.

You were the only thing I had left.

Then you decided you needed a break to have a rest.

Did you forget that I don't get to have a rest from this?

This is 24/7 with no bliss.

I never thought I was flawless.

I'm on my knees, looking like a broken goddess.

I thought you would never leave me so why?

Why didn't I think you'd end up saying bye?