Shattered Thoughts

Poem: Rape Joke

Do you not understand "no"?
I realize boys will be boys but we've hit a new low.

I didn't know this was our new reality, it was something I had to realize.
But when I say something everyone acts like I'm hypnotized.

I didn't know the dirty things on your mind you would call.
So I ran home to bawl.

When I thought of boys, I thought of flowers and love powers.
Not boys who corner me in the showers.

I never thought my friend that's a boy
Would treat me like a toy.

I know you thought you were hilarious with that rape joke,
But I'm a bear you don't wanna poke.

Because if you say something to me.
I'm not just gomna leave it be.

You thought you were smart when you said what you'd do to me.
But I ain't gonna let it fly, I'm the bear you dont wanna be the honey.

You thought you were funny when you snuck those pics of me.
But I ain't no bitch, I'm not gonna leave it be.

You thought HA HA HA when you touched me.
But I didn't give you permission and yeah I'm gonna scream about it like a banshee.

Even those other girls who are suppose to know what it's like.
Pretend to not know me when I stand up for my right.

The same hoes who write on the bathroom stalls about their dates and soulmates.
The same soulmate who's really a fuckboy looking at her like shark bate.

The same girls who's words on the stalls get scraped.
Even when all they did was right the truth: I just got raped.

When I scream my outrage,
You all tell me I'm crazy and lock my words in a cage.

Excuse me, but when I thought of my guy friends,
I didn't think they'd spend all our time trying to make amends.

Because they thought it was only a rape joke.
But I told you I was a bear and they were gonna understand when I spoke.

And when I retaliate,
Don't threaten me saying you'll rape me it's fate, you should have done it when I was eight.

1 out of every 5 girls will be sexual assaulted.
No one will be laughing when she goes to the edge of a building and takes a dive.
She might not survive.

I out of every 10 boys will be sexual assaulted.
No one will be laughing when he decides to write on his wrists with a pen.

1 out of every 6 guys will sexually assault someone.
Dead silence.
It might be because of the booze.
But the scary thing is I'll never know which one of you he'll choose.

I don't want to be overcome by your violence.
I won't be able to handle it if I'm shoved back into silence.

Even as I write this my skin burns.
But to change this everyone has to take turns.

So please don't be quiet.
You must riot.

I don't remember waking up into a society with the casual rape jokes.
So I will fight it- I'm a bear and these are all my hopes