Shattered Thoughts

Poem: If I Were Gone

What would happen if I were gone?
Would you live on?

Would you cry?
Maybe come to my funeral and say bye?

Would you even shed a tear?
Maybe come to my gravestone and say cheers with beer?

Or would my absence haunt you?
Would you cut open your wrist and say "I do it too."?

Or would you not care?
Would you forget the feeling of my hair?

Why did you have to do what you did?
Making me feel happy like a kid.

Did it keep you up at night like me?
Did you think about being free?

Did you text your friends for advise?
Did you tell them all those stupid lies?

I know I stopped talking to you first but,
I couldn't go on without you I knew it in my gut.

Why couldn't you just say sorry?
When I killed myself did you notice how the night was so starry?

That night I tried to figure out where it all went wrong,
Then I realized I wasn't suppose to be lifelong.

Don't blame yourself, it wasn't your fault.
I know you want to know why but you'll never know by default.

Anyway where would I even start?
You broke my fucking heart.