Selfless

An Update...

"One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through and it will be someone else's survival guide."

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January 27, 2020

Hello! I don't even know what to begin with any of this...

I haven't updated this story since 2014 and I am sorry. There has been dozens of people who messaged me asking when I will update this story and I have replied to almost all saying that I don't know when and that I have a huge writers block.

I think I should owe you and explanation even after 6 years of not saying anything, here, officially in this book.

When I started writing this story, I had a tremendous amount of ideas pouring out of my head. I was happy, I was excited, I could not stop typing once I started. Although, as time went on I found myself becoming less of those things. I felt like I was writing things that I should be doing in real life. Not exactly meaning living my life as my characters, but more like experiencing life like they do.

So I took a break and that break lasted for a month and when I felt like I should write again nothing came to me. No more ideas, no more excitement, and I was devastated to leave you guys with an unfinished story. It was not my plan and if I would have known this I wouldn't have published it in the first place.

I started this book when I was 15. At that time I was getting over a boy who treated me poorly, I was depressed and lost about 30 pounds, and I was barely living life. I had no real life experience. I never traveled anywhere, I didn't understand the value of friends, I was sucked up all in society's rules telling me I should do this and do that, I was a free soul trapped.

As time went on and now to this day I am typing to you as a 20 year old (21 year old very soon). I learned the value of self love, I went through two other heartbreaks for me to understand what self love is. I finished High School, dropped out of college, traveled, and explored the possibility of freelancing my photography.

But one thing was a constant throughout those years... I found myself coming back here to write. Not to write this story, but other stories that are NOT done. I love writing and I've been writing more again. My writing has improved sooooo much compared what you guys read last and I am beyond happy that it did because lets face it 15 year old me sucked at it lol.

This update is for all the true fans of this book and I am sorry I have let you down. I am not sure if I want to continue writing this book because it has been so long and I have grown since then. I am never saying that this can't ever happen, if it did I would want to completely uproot this story and change a lot of things to it, but it wouldn't be the same story I originally had in mind anymore.

I hope you can understand where I am coming from and I hope you can follow me in this journey becoming a more mature writer. I won't be starting another story now, but you will see me in the coming month hopefully with something you all love as well.

Thank you for being here for me and thank you for caring about me so much. I am eternally grateful for you all. 

Please shoot me a message if you like or comment here. I would love to talk to you.

Also if you want to follow my account so you can start this new journey with me please do so. You'll get notify when I post a new story.

Thank you again

- Crystal <3