Cold comfort

οδυνηρή αγάπη

I give myself to you
Unwillingly
Reluctant to show you my soul
But something pulls me towards you
It breaks my defenses
And shatters the walls I tried so hard to keep up
I am bare and vulnerable
So insanely terrified
Yet I feel so safe
My heart is colder than the arctic snow
Yet for you it burns brighter than a thousand suns
Why?
Who are you?
A stranger to me yet, it's almost as if my soul has known you it's entire existence
You came to me making demands I would never meet
But my soul followed you blindly
Without question
I am screaming for you to leave
But my soul begs you to stay
And I am so at war with myself
That the war with you becomes just a battle
A battle I fail every single day
So maybe my soul is right
What if you stayed?
Maybe this can't be answered with logic
Maybe, just maybe, I am the one who begs you to stay
Even if it's quietly
Maybe my soul is the one screaming
Trying to get me to see you logically
Not emotionally
So please stay
I battle myself for you everyday
So please stay
Stay for me
For the peace you bring me cannot be found in another
Stay for the sleepless nights and the cold winters
Stay
I will give myself to you
Willingly
And although the thought of loving you terrifies me
The thought of losing you breaks me
So stay
Stay because my soul is yours
To keep
Forever