Deanna
"So B, deal?"
I asked her.
Nakatulala lang siya sa akin. She's probably thinking how serious I am on my offer.
That is the deal. I will bare it all if she will marry me.
Sounds ridiculous, maybe, but no marriage, no confession.
"Hindi ako nakikipagbiruan sayo Deanna Wong."
Complete name. Well, as far as she knows, that is my real name.
Nagiiba na naman ang mood niya.
"Neither do I. Hindi basta-basta yung pinapagawa mo sa akin. I know that you are pondering about my secrets. Habang tumatagal mas lalo kang nagiging curious. Unfortunately I cannot tell it to you. God knows I want to. You don't know how badly I needed someone to talk to about this shit called 'my life'.
But I can't. Not yet Jessica. You have to be a Wong first.
So, marry me Baby...
I will stand in front of you naked, literally and figuratively
pag kasal na tayo."
Now it is sinking in.
I am seeing in her eyes the flashes of brainstorming that's happening inside her head.
Doubt, confusion, and the one I don't want to see...
fear.
"Wag na nga! Ayoko na malaman! Change topic na nga tayo! Si Mario ba nagresign na talaga? Ang tagal ko nang di nakakapag-spa! Wala na kong kasama eh! Saan ba siya nakatira? Pupuntahan ko siya. Baklang yon! Di man lang nagpaalam sa akin."
Biglang napunta kay Mario. Mahahawa na rin yata ako mood swings niya.
Tumaas baba ang kilay niya. She is waiting for an answer.
Also to me Baby... 😭
I remember how he looked like, that moment when I opened my eyes after hearing the gunshots.
His brain was scattered from the back seat.
The first thing I did was I scooped those that fell on the leather seat and tried to put it back.
My shattered heart prayed then that doctors will fix it so I have to get it all.
When Kuya Apeng stopped me, I pushed him.
It took five of our men to stop me and transfer me to another vehicle.
"Baby! Anong nangyayari sayo? Tinatanong ko lang kung nasaan si Mario eh! Umiiyak ka na!"
Di ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang luha ko.
"Uuwi na ko. Sige na. Matulog ka na."
Sorry Jessica. Wag ka na magtampo kay Mario. Hindi niya ginustong iwan tayo ng ganun.
"Si Mario, Deanna. Nasaan na si Mario? Sasabihin mo ba sa akin o isa rin yon sa sikreto na bawal mong sabihin sa akin?"
