My Dream Boyfriend... Not In My Fathers Eyes....

13. My Dream Boyfriend...

Chapter 13


        I was sitting at home, on my bed.  Now days, I was barely home.  I was only home to tell me father that I would be out     some more.  But now, I was home because dad wasn't home, and he wouldn't be home for at least 5 hours, and Ray was     coming over.  we were going to, you know what, and we couldn't at Gages house because they made fun of us.  I was so     embarrased.  It had been 3 days since the first time with Ray.  I loved it.  I loved him.
        I hadn't ever had sex out of love.  Only when I didn't want it, besides when I was with Ray.
        Yesterday, he told me that it was me that made him want to be a better person.  I almost cried.  I couldn't explain how     much I loved him.  I wanted to tell Ray that he was my world, and that I would always love him, eith all of my heart.  I wanted     to tell him that I would never love anyone as much as I loved him.  I wanted to tell him all of that, but I was afraid that if I did,     he would laugh at me and dump me.  Actually, thats not possible, because hes not even my boyfriend.  Hopefully, by the end     of the day, he will be. 
        The doorbell rang, and I shot out of the bed and ran to the door.  I opened it, and Raymond was standing there smiling     at me.  I smiled back and kissed him.  "Will you be my girlfriend, Deir?  Because i just noticed that you weren't."  I nodded     excitedly.
        "Yes, I will be!"
        We went into the bedroom.
        "You were still on the pill right?"  Ray asked me after we were done making love.
        "Why?  Did you not use a condom?"  I hoped he didn't notice the nervousness in my voice. 
        "No, I didn't."
        "Well, yeah, I'm still on birth control."  Truth was, I hadn't taken it yesterday, or today.  "I love you, Ray, so much." 
        I saw him smile.  "I love you more than anything in the whole wide world Deir.  I wouldn't trade you for anything.      Anything."  We got dressed, and I was smiling like a retard the whole time. 
        "Well, I'm proud of you Deir."
        "Why?"  I giggled.
        "Because you didn't ask me to get out or turn around when you were getting dressed."
        "Well, it didn't really matter. You weren't looking at me anyways."  I told him, sticking out my tounge.
        "No, thats were you're wrong, baby.  I was perving on you the whole time."  I slapped him playfuly on the shoulder.          "Babe.  I really don't know how to tell you this...  but, I love you so much.  You're my whole world.  I don't know whhat I     would ever do without you.  If you had never moved back to La Cygne, I would have been raped by some guy in an alley, and I     still would have thought that my dad and Will were good guys.  So, I love you so, so much.  And if this creeps you out, feel     free to leave."
        Raymond stood up and my heart sank.  Did that really creep him out?  So much that he would leave?  I looked down     at my legs, and started tearing up.  After all we went through together, he would leave just because I said that?
        "I feel the same way, Deir.  If I had never moved back, I never would have met the most amazing girl in the world.  I     would have never fell in love."  I looked up, shocked, and jumped on him.  Now, I was on top of h9im on the ground.
        "I thought you were going to be freaked out and dump me."  I kissed him before he could say nything. "I love you so     much."
        "Ditto."  He smiled at me lovingly.  And then his blood splattered all over me.  Rays eyes became unfocoused.  He was     shot, right in the chest.       
        "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"  I started sobbing, and screaming on the top of my lungs.  "Help!  Someone HELP     ME!"  I looked around, and saw Harold Smallders, standing in front of me, with a revolver in his hand.  "Why would you do     that?!"  I scrame, and reached for the gun under my bed.  "Help Me!  SOMEBODY HELP US!  PLEASE HELP!  CALL THE COPS!"      I yelled to nobody in particular.  I pointed the gun at Harold, and pulled the trigger 5 times.  Nothing happened.  It was     unloaded.  I stood up and started hitting the fuck out of Harold, using the gun as a club.  After he was sprawled out on the     ground, I crawled over to Ray.  "It's going to be okay Baby."  I told Ray, holding onto his hand.  He wasn't dead yet.  "I love     you.  So much, Raymond." 
        "Deir-dra.  I... love you t-oo.  Don-t cry Bayb... Tell... My family that I Lo-ve them... And I love you.  So Mu..."  He stopped     breathing and his hand became limp in mine.
        "NOOOOO!  RAY, YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME, BABY!  PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.  You can't leave..."  I     held on tightly to his hand. 
        "Deirdra, what happen-"  Angel, Rays brother, came into the room.
        He sank to the ground, onto his knees.  "Oh, no.  Oh, god, Ray.  Not now..."  He started sobbing. 
        Then he pulled out a phone, and called the cops. 

        An hour later, I was still crying.  The police kept telling me that it was all going to be all right, but I knew that they     were wrong.
        Petunia arrived, with tears in her eyes.  "What happened Deirdra?" 
        "Harold... he.. he shot Ray." 
        "Oh, oh, my gosh."  She hugged me as hard as she could, then went to hug Angel.
        Then some guy hugged me.  He was wearing a hat, and he had red longish hair.  "Who... who are you?"  I asked.
        "Its your brother, Deir.  What happened to Raymond?"  So, Gage was in a costume. 
        "Har- Harold sh-sh-shot himmm..."  I hugged Gage tighter and sobbed into his shoulder.
        I hugged Gage until it hurt.  My heart ached bad.  So bad.  Why did Ray have to die?  Why did the only man I ever     truely loved die?  Why now?  Why did he have to go now, right when I was really starting to love him.

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okay guys.  heres the deal.  i didnt upload forever cuz my dad took the memory out of my computer, which makes it not turn on, and so i could uploasad this chapter cuz i was already halfway done with it... and i got into a car crash today.  my finger is broken... i think, and so rite now its painfull to type. lol. n then my nose hurts, and was bleeding earlier.  but im okay, and so is all of my sisters.

well, love you guys! :D