Reborn (Bakugo X Reader)

30. Vibe check

I sit alone in the quiet interrogation room. My thoughts being the loudest of all things. It's too much to bear. I want to ask so many questions but I doubt they will answer them. I stare at the table, trying to find something to distract me. The person earlier looked well.... traumatized? Even after he saw my memories on guard, I couldn't protect him. My shoulders sag. They didn't explain what I did at the hospital. I didn't use my sword but it was bloody. Something did happen.

D-did I slaughter my mom with that sword? Whose blood was exactly that? I don't think I was bleeding, I doubt it was my blood. Was it m-mom's? I shudder. I try not to believe the revelation. I want to cry but all my tears have been washed away. Will I be able to go back to normal? Will my life be normal again? Glimpse of Deku and Toga flashes in front of me. I hyperventilate. They are going to get me, aren't they? I sob again. Anxiety fills the room. I just want to go home. I want to forget about this. I want to forget.

I grip the table. My knuckles whiten from it. Calm down (Y/n). Deep breaths. 1 2 3 1 2 3. I open my eyes when I hear shuffling behind the door. Aizawa-sensei opens it.

"Come on. Let's take you back." I cry and try to get up. I finally am free from it all. Aizawa-sensei rubs my back and hugs me. I clutch his shirt and bask in his warmth. It feels nice to be held. It's nice to feel loved and wanted. I sniff and follow behind Aizawa-sensei. We get in his car and I get a little paranoid with being alone with him. He activates his quirk to reassure me and I calm down. I feel bad to make him use his quirk. I look out the window. It's feels so long since I have seen a blue sky. I smile when we drive past the park with children playing in it. I feel like nothing is wrong anymore.

I try to reminisce my own childhood. I remember when my dad would push me on the swings. My mom would happily record with that beautiful smile of hers. Static. I get flashbacks of her speech at the hospital. 'Who would love a child like you. I never wanted a brat like you since the day you were born.' My smile drops as I stare at my lap. I get flashes of the simulations. Who am I going back to? Everyone hates me. I killed my own mother. My father hates me. My friends will start ignoring me. Katsuki...He never liked me.

"Kid, what's wrong?" I just realize we stopped inside the parking lane. I look at Aizawa-sensei. His brows knitted together, his face showing clear concern. I look down again. I can't really do anything. I try to smile. I try to show that I am strong that he doesn't need to worry about me but I couldn't do it. He pats my head. So softly, it remind me of my dad. He would always do it when he would return from his trips. He would pet my head and give me a forehead kiss paired with a tickle session and gifts.

"I-i don't really know what to do in these situations but uh try to distract yourself with the uh now. Uh..I know it's hard with all the bad experiences gnawing at the back of your head but try...okay?" I laugh a bit. Aizawa-sensei is really bad at cheering people up.

"I'll try. I think I'll understand what dark humor is now." He gives me a sad smile and starts the car again. I try to count the trees passing by and think about the weird things in my vision.

(These are supposedly called eye floaters. *shrug*)

I need to be brave. We sneak in the back entrance of the hospital since the front was crawling with media. It made me uneasy.

Aizawa gets out the car and I follow him. I hear distinct shouting at the top of the stairs and see Katsuki. I freeze. It's the real one right? Katsuki notices me and runs down the stairs. I see Mina and the rest of the Bakusquad follow him. Even Mina is here. I take in short breaths.

I take few steps back. Katsuki runs at me and engulfs me in a hug. I couldn't move. His smell fills my nose. Tears fall down my face as I start shaking. His smell is overpowered by the pressure. Not again. I try to resist him. I put my hands on his chest and try to push him away. Being physically stronger than me, he tightens his grip. I frantically look around for Aizawa. He is talking to Present Mic. I feel Mina wipe my tears away and give a smile. The same smile.

I whimper as I feel more pressure on me. They hugging me.

Or are they trying to suffocate you?

My eyes widen at Veracity's words. I struggle more and release my quirk. Everyone stumbles back with electricity dancing on their skin and hair. I want to say something but I couldn't. I try to breathe again. How do you breathe again? I put my hands on my knees as my vision starts blurring.

Aizawa-sensei rubs my back. I try to relax but the memories of Toga and Deku are still fresh from the simulation. I grip my blood stained hospital gown. It adds more to my anxiety. Sensei didn't tell me anything about what I did when I woke up. He didn't even acknowledge the blood stains. I fall down on my knees. Sweat and tears drip down my face. My breaths becoming shorter every second.

I see black spots at the tip of my vision. I am passing out, aren't I? Weak. Useless. Disgusting. Murderer.

You killed your own mother. Shameful. Do you want to be a pitiful mess? I thought you were already. Hahahahaha.

I look up to see everyone around me shouting something. Aizawa-sensei is the only one touching me. I make I eye contact with him and read his lips. 'Breathe' He takes a deep breath and I follow him. I clutch his hands tightly, afraid if I let go, I won't be able to find my way back.

Once I have calmed down, he ruffles my hair. I instantly relax at the action. It always took me back to my sweet memories of my childhood. We get up and I wobble a bit. Aizawa steadies me. Everyone kept their distance. I am glad for that. I look down and follow Aizawa-sensei. I couldn't look someone in the eye anymore.

We walk to the elevator and sensei presses a button. I try to focus on happy things. Like fluffy clouds or unicorns or rainbows or (favourite anime). We reach a room and I start feeling anxious. I play with the end of my bloodied bandages and prepare for the worst.

This is going to be shitty. I stand straight as Aizawa opens the door.

Let's not hope at all.

So, I was wondering who you guys ship Deku with in this story. It's kind of important and I really want comments on this. So, please tell me. Also, might not be able to publish chapters in time cause fucking exams exist. Man, I hate exams. Anyways, sorry if the story is depressing or something like that. I ain't apologising for it. I am proud of the book and the views it got. Thank for your votes and comments. Hope you have a good life.