Love The Game: Overtime

Chapter 28

As soon as Alex and Callie had gone Sara sat down at the table opposite of me. My heart was beating so hard I wondered if she could hear it. My head was throbbing at this point. I had been looking down, staring at my bracelet. I don't know what to say, or even what to think. I thought I cheated. Sara thought I'd cheated.

After minutes of sitting in silence I finally looked up. Sara was sitting there staring at me with tears running down her face. Within a split second I was up and wrapping my arms around her. She just wrapped her arms tighter around herself and sobbed. I felt tears start to fall down my own cheeks. I never wanted to make her cry, I tried so hard to protect her from everything. I never thought I'd have to protect her from myself. I stood there, holding her as she cried, and I hated myself more than I'd ever before.

"I'm so sorry." I cried. Sara gently pushed my arms off of her and brought her knees up to her chest. She was rubbing her right shoulder. I pulled back, sat on the table and waited. She composed herself a little and wiped the tears out of her eyes. She then looked up at me and a new round of tears started falling.

"I hated you." She cried. I felt my heart shatter into pieces, like a vase if you dropped it. I looked down at my feet and cried.

"I... I thought you didn't love me anymore." She breathed out between sobs.

"I told myself that if I hated you then maybe I'd stop loving you."

"I never stopped loving you. I never have and I never will." I said.

"Sara, I hate myself for what I did to you. Even just making you think I did. I promised you I'd never hurt you. I tried. I tried so fucking hard not to, but I failed. And I'm so sorry. I love you. More than anyone in this world, and I hurt you. I'm so sorry." I can't breathe. My hands are shaking and my head still feels like it's going to explode.

"If... If you." The words hurt to say.

"If you can't forgive me then I understand." At this Sara looked up at me.

"Avery I never thought I'd forgive you. Just the thought of you kissing someone else. Being with someone else. Loving someone else. It hurt more than anything I've ever felt." I couldn't look at her.

"But then when Callie told me what happened... everything changed." She put her hand on my cheek and made me look at her.

"Callie said you threw a fit when she told you to change, and that you threw an even bigger fit when she told you to go to bed. You were screaming saying that if it wasn't my bed that you weren't getting in." She was laughing through the tears.

"She said you actually tried to fight her when she tried to take your shoes off." I started to laugh, just a little.

"Sara, I would never purposely hurt you like that. You know me. Better than anyone. You're the only person for me. I can't imagine being with anyone else. I don't know who I'd be without you. Without you I couldn't even breathe. Every breathe I took hurt. I'd start to think about you, and what I did to you, and it was like the room was caving in. I need you." We were both crying now. Sara stood up from the chair and stood right in front of me. She moved closer to me so that she was standing between my knees. She put her hands on either side of my face and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

"I need you too." She smiled.

"Sara?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I kiss you?"

"Yeah." She nodded. I leaned in and gently touched my lips to hers. I've missed her so much. I missed the way she kissed me. I missed smelling her coconut shampoo. I missed waking up with her next to me, and how I always wake up in the middle of the night sweating because she puts all the blankets on me so I won't get cold. I missed telling her how much I love her and how I can't live without her. I missed her stupid jokes and her good morning texts when I left before she was awake. Her sexy smirk, her perfectly crooked smile, the scar in her eyebrow that reminds me of just how lucky I am to have her. I pulled back from her lips and just looked into her eyes. Her honey brown eyes were glossy, big and brown. She stepped back and just stared at me. I slid off the table and stood up, but as soon as I was on my feet I felt a wave of dizziness, and sort of fell forward. Sara grabbed me and stood me up right.