You're My Target

Chapter 45

Troy stood stiff as a board against his fridge. his heart felt like it was in his throat. every beat made him feel like he wanted to vomit. He looked over at Soyeon, still standing in his doorway, the expression on her face unchanging, and angry.

"maybe she didnt see..." Troy thought to himself. from her point of view, it was possible afterall. Soyeon started to stride directly toward troy. as she approached, Eunjung looked up from the floor and attemped to speak, but Soyeon put her hand up in eunjungs face. Soyeon gave her a strong leer, causing Eunjung to step back and put her head back down. Soyeon turned back to troy and folded her arms, shaking her head. She looked down, then back up to troys face, her eyes looked sad. She suddenly before troy even noticed, smacked Troy hard across the face. His whole head thrown to the side. his left cheek stung, his ear ringing.

"i cant believe you." she fumed. troys mind raced, now in an even greater state of panic, realizing Soyeon did in fact know what just happened.

"no, soyeon, its not what you think!" troy pleaded putting his hands up desperately.

"so i didnt just walk in on my boyfriend and one of my best friends kissing each other?" eunjung said nothing, and continued to keep her face facing the floor. Troy tried to speak but nothing was coming out.

"no" he forced out in a nervous grumble. Soyeon struck him again, and then again in the same spot, causing troy to buckle to his knees. she didnt say anything else, she simply turned and left, slamming troys door behind her. Troy sat on his knees, the welts soyeon left on his cheek were pulsating. after sitting bewildered briefly on the floor, he got up to go after Soyeon, but when he opened his door, she was already gone. he stumbled over to his couch in a small state of anxiety.

"this isnt really happening." he told himself as he curled up in a ball beside the arm of his couch.

"Troy, im sorry." Eunjung said. her words did no register to troy, who balled up on the floor."troy.." she said again, troy looked up confused, as if he had forgot Eunjung was still in his apartment.

"eunjung.. what, why did you do that what were you thinking?" troy asked her desperately.

"i thought, it was what you wanted... troy."

"no, no. that is not what i wanted!" troy shook his head fiercly.

"you said you didnt feel right with soyeon. i was only..."

"ok, yes i said that but that didnt mean i didnt want to be with her." Troy exclaimed.

"well i encouraged you to start with, for you to be with her... but you kept contradicting me so i thought you and I... im sorry."

"listen Eunjung. i like you alot. you are a really great girl. i just dont have the same feelings for you, like i do for soyeon." troy told her. "i mean besides, your Jangs.."

"im Jangs what? Jang is dead! no guys talk to me, or notice me or flirt with me, they all look at me like im still Jangs girlfriend. you saw that for yourself at the party you had. they avoid me, like theyd be disrespecting Jang if they flirted with me or even talked to me. but not you troy, you took care of me."

"this is going to sound really bad, following what you just said, but i did it for Jang. i told him id look out for you." Troy explained sadly, swallowing the lump in his throat

"even you..." she pouted.

"Jang isnt whats stopping me from returning your feelings. Soyeon is." eunjung was holding back tears. "eunjung, and i think you're confused yourself. the way you feel about me..."

"yes troy. you're right. it was all just one giant mistake." Eunjung said with a small sarcastic giggle.

"so, you will tell soyeon then, it was a misunderstanding?" Troy sounded hopeful.

"yes troy, because im just the depressed, confused girl. so overcome with sadness and anxiety i had no idea what i was feeling or thinking. throwing myself blindly at you to help get over my grieving!" she shouted kicking his table leg.

"i didnt mean it like that. Eunjung, come on." Troy stood up.

"you might as well have meant it like that Troy." Eunjung turned sharply and head to the door. troy could only watch speechless as Eunjung stormed off out of his apartment. Troy paced around his apartment unsure of what to do. He could try to go after Soyeon, if she decided to still go to the carnival after everything that had happened. He had no one to go to or to call... except eunjung whom obviously wasnt going to make the situation any better. Though he did his best not to dwell on it and hoped things would straighten out, Troy spent most of the night with a gigantic knot in his stomach tossing and turning on his bed. Troy woke up early the next morning. he rose out of bed and the first thing in his mind was Soyeon. for that brief moment there was a happiness, forgetting what had happened the night before , or thinking it was a dream. However reality began to sink in slowly, and the knot in his stomach began to grow again. His first instinct was of course to call Soyeon, but he didnt want to come off desperate, even though he was in fact very desperate. after waiting for what felt like forever, but was actually like 15 minutes, Troy tried calling her. There was no answer. He didnt feel like eating nor did he feel like doing anything except curling up on his couch. Troy tried calling soyeons house a few more times, each time there was no answer and Each time, he sank deeper into depression. Finally he decided to just go to her house and wait for her. He had to try to talk to her. He couldnt wait around all day. He grabbed his moped helmet and dusted it off before heading out the door. he started up his moped when a friendly face greeted him unexpectedly.

"going to see Eunjung?" Boram asked troy with a devious smirk.

"you want a taste of your own cannon ball? im on my way to see soyeon." he replied not in any mood for jokes.

"well good thing im here. she isnt home."

"thats not going to stop me from going." Troy started to drive slowly toward the street.

"Troy. stop. please." she grabbed his moped and stood in front of it.

"i have to talk to her!" he shouted.

"im sure you do. but its not gonna happen right now.

"Troy shook his head and turned off his moped.

"thank you." she said.

"can we go inside, its really cold today." Troy took boram inside and they sat in his living room.

"so, its obvious you know what happened, did you come here to yell at me..." Troy asked her.

"we all know. im just mad i didnt come to the door with soyeon. i missed all the action. i mean look at your face." boram giggled pointing at the still visible welts soyeons hand left on his face.

"oh you just came here to rub it in."

"im sorry. yes i came with soyeon and qri last night.. she told us what happened. i came to see how you were doing."

"so, youre not going to yell at me?" troy was confused.

"for what? letting eunjung kiss you?"

"i didnt LET her, she caught me off guard." troy said frustrated.

"troy. i know how you feel about soyeon. but i also know you have a reputation of being a smooth talking city boy." she said in an iffy tone.

"but we both know that isnt true. who and how did that even start! im a giant dork." troy sighed.

"troy. im just saying. you were doing all those things for eunjung... soyeon asked you guys to keep your distance..."

"dont give me that." troy jumped up to his feet. "dont use that against me! i was there for eunjung because i am her friend, because i promised jang i would! and i would never make a move on her for that very same reason! and i didnt even want to ask eunjung because of soyeon telling me to keep my distance but then soyeon says hey go ask eunjung!"

"alright, troy. calm down. im sorry."

"are you? you come here to talk or whatever but youre not really helping. youre just making me angry! and tell me to calm down... ill calm down when soyeon knows what happened was not my fault and a mistake! eunjung needs to tell her that! i mean if soyeon really saw us she'd have seen i wasnt even touching eunjung when it happened. my hands were down here, here!" he said said holding his arms down tight by his side.

"soyeon is upset as well you know."

"well, then we need to just clear this all up then. theres no need for us to be feeling this way."

"troy, she'll talk when shes ready." boram said pulling him back down to the couch.

"ready for what this is all a stupid misunderstanding!" troy barked.

"it's not stupid. eunjung who is also very hurt and embarrassed by the way, has feelings for you."

" she knew i had a girlfriend and decided to kiss me anyway! feelings or not, you dont do that."

"listen troy. ok. youre missing the point. its just a bad situation for all of you guys. eunjung is hurt, soyeon feels betrayed.. and yes you are hurt too.."

"all eunjung has to do is..." troy said cutting boram off... but boram cut him back off..

"its not eunjungs fault. its no ones fault. its everyones fault. eunjung just isnt gona be able to say something and then make everything go back to normal ok?" she tried to get through to him.

"youre making this sound way more complicated then it is." he huffed.

"ive spoken to soyeon. ive spoken to eunjung and now im here talking to you. and as everyones friend. just give it time. soyeon will talk when shes ready." boram reassured him. Troy didnt want to hear that and was determined to talk to her as soon as he got the chance.
"so, you wanna play X-station or go get some food?" boram tried changing subjects.

"im not really in the mood."

"well yea, but you should anyway to stop dwelling on it."

"Fine."after wasting some time with Boram She urged him to come eat with her. Being in no mood to eat, he refused her offer. He insisted he stay at home. Boram eventually could not resist her grumbling stomach and had to go get something to eat, leaving Troy to wallow alone. He peeked out his window to make sure Boram had really gone. When the coast was clear he got his helmet and quickly ran out to his moped and rode off to Soyeons house. When troy got there he ran up to her door and knocked rapidly on her door. Soyeons little sister answered.

"shes not home jerk, go away!" she shouted at him trying to close the door on him.

"hello, its nice to see you too." troy blocked the door with his foot. "may i please speak to your sister?"

"i just said she isnt here, are you dumb, deaf or both!"

"SOYEON!" troy called into the house. "SOYEON! please just talk to me!"

"leave! stop bothering us!" her sister continued to try to close the door on Troy.

"ill leave right after i talk to soyeon."

"Troy.." soyeon appeared at the top of the stairway across from the front door. she began to walk down slowly. "i really dont have anything to say to you right now. please leave."

"you heard her, now go!" her sister kicked troy in the knee, Troy grunted in pain but tried to hide it. He doubled over still holding the doorknob.

"please please just wait!" he shouted as her sister finally closed the door on him. he held his aching kneecap. "that little brat!" Troy limped up to his feet and slammed his forehead onto soyeons door."i didnt want to kiss her, and i sure as hell didnt want her to kiss me!" he yelled frustrated into the door.

"well you werent doing much to stop her." troy heard soyeons muffled voice from inside.

"i didnt have a chance! she was giving me advice about you, then next thing i know shes in my face and then youre at my door!"

"Troy. i just. i just dont want to hear excuses. and i dont want to see you right now." she replied rejecting his desperate pleas. "now just please, go home."

"soyeon! im sorry." he said choked up, peeling himself off of her door. he got back on his moped and had no choice but to give up and go home.