Troy sat on his couch, Eunjung was kneeling on the floor beside him. He held her hand tightly, he was feeling a wave of relief, but still a bit confused. He took a few deep breaths, taking in the situation.
"so, are you alright? im sorry i disturbed you, i knocked but you didnt answer but i saw your lights on when i came in you looked like you were having a bad dream... moaning and fidgeting.." Eunjung said softly.
"it's alright. im fine. im alright. must have fallen asleep.. didnt get much last night. its been a crazy weekend." Troy explained his throat was still dry. "where have you been? we've all been so worried about you."
"im fine. i appreciate the concern and im sorry i left like that i just, i just had to go.. somewhere." Eunjung explained. she sounded a bit sad.
"where? " troy asked.
"no where special. just a place that wasnt here Troy. i just had to .. get away. things are so different now. things just seemed so difficult i had to just get away." Eunjung said not offering too much detail. "now that i've had some time, i felt i could come back and say what i need to say."
"say what you need to say?" Troy didn't understand."i came back to apologize to you and Soyeon. that im truly sorry." Eunjung said sincerely. she stood up from the floor and sat beside troy.
"eunjung, you don't have to be sorry." Troy couldn't look at her face.
" it doesnt matter what you say. i am sorry. i've been so torn sine Jangs been gone. i was hurt, confused and you were there for me. when i kissed you i crossed a line i shouldnt have. when i did, it hurt you and soyeon. i was only thinking about myself. it was selfish of me." Eunjung said, making troy look at her.
"well... thank you." Troy said swallowing the lump in his throat.
"are you and Soyeon..doing okay?" she asked hesitantly.Troy didn't answer, he didn't want to make Eunjung feel worse."i see." eunjung replied to troys lack of a response. "looks like i really did some damage."
"hey hey, its not you. really. I've spoken to Soyeon. just.. yesterday..? what day is it, what time is it?" Troy said, his little nap made him lose track of time.
"Troy, its sunday night." Eunjung told him.
"right. well then yeah yesterday. and well we talked and kind of mutually.. decided..." Troy tried to say they broke up but it wasnt coming out.
"if you say so." Eunjung replied, but Troy had a feeling she didn't really believe him.
"so, who knows youre back exactly?" Troy asked her curiously.
"just you so far." Eunjung answered him. "why?"
"wait wait wait. just me? not even your family? no on eelse?" troy exclaimed.
"well you were closest on my trip back." eunjung shrugged.
"Eunjung, this is serious! theres a major investigation going on right now! the police think you were kidnapped! you need to go home and let everyoneknow youre alright...." Troy paused.
"i will, i didnt know about it im sorry." Eunjung was shocked to hear troys words.
"so.. you came here first, no one else knows, not even the police.." troy thought to himself out loud.
"yesss.." she said again wanting Troy to continue
"so you .. werent the one.." Troy snapped out of the thought.
"the one who what?" Eunjung looked at him, totally not following him.
"nothing, nothing. just. just go home and let everyone know youre okay." troy said rubbing her shoulder. She looked at Troy in the eyes for awhile. troy began to feel a bit awkward. "you're not.. planning on kissing me again are you?" troy asked her as she gazed at him.
"am i that bad of a kisser?" Eunjung giggled.
"well. honestly, it was nice. but you know.." troy said shyly.
"how about, one on the cheek." Eunjung said, and pecking him quickly before he could react. "There!"
Troy was left speechless. "that was, a thank you. for everything. you are a good friend Troy. while i was away i wondered if you hadnt come here, what would have happened, where would i be?"
Troy thought about what she said. and he was thinking if he hadn't come, Jang might still be alive. Or he might... be something else.
"if it werent for you, i dont know what i would have done after Jang was taken from me. you really helped me." she continued.
"Eunjung.." Troy interrupted her. "the thing is..."Troy paused. eunjung looked at him eagerly awaiting his words."well i...and.. and Jang..." troy tried to get the words out. "its my fault."
"Troy, i thought we were passed that. Boram would be smacking you so hard right now." Eunjung said with a half smile. "but.. im glad you were here. im glad i got to see you and speak to you again."
"well why wouldnt you?" troy asked her.
"because, im... not staying." Eunjung said shockingly.
"what? what do you mean?" Troy replied a bit wildly.
"i cant stay here troy. i thought about it for a long time. theres nothing here for me." Eunjung said. she sounded quite set on her choice.
"what are you saying? you have your family, and your friends and school... your life is here!" Troy said trying to sway her.
"Troy ive missed so much school. im lucky im passing. my family and friends will understand that i just cant stay here. its too much.. its still too painful. everything reminds me of him. im tired of hurting and waiting for the hurt to go away. .." Eunjung said.
"Eunjung you cant leave... your friends need you, hyomin.. Hyomin is missing too. thats right, how could i forget to mention this, this whole case about you being kidnapped, hyomin is involved too." Troy added, hoping that would have some effect.
"that's awful, thats... horrible.. but it doesnt make me want to stay. it may sound bad, as her friend. but its just more bad news i dont want to hear." Eunjung said turning away.
"you have to be here for when she comes home." troy said.
"how long has she been gone?" she asked.
"uhm, actually. im not sure, over a week id say." he answered.
"and what if she doesnt come back?"
"Eunjung dont say that." Troy told her.
"if she doesnt, thats someone else ive lost. Troy i know you dont understand, but it's just what i have to do." Eunjungs mind would not be changed.
"you cant.. leave." Troy mumbled. "how is leaving going to stop you from losing people? explain the logic in that."
"Troy, i thought you would be the one who understood my choice. thats why i came here first." Eunjung said upset. "you left your home to come here on your own."
"but i didnt leave to get away. i left to .."
"i have to get away to achieve the things i want Troy. is that what you were going to say? you came here to make something of yourself? well i want to do that too. and i cant with all the pain that fills me while im here." eunjung cut him off. Troy had nothing to say in response. Eunjung knew what he was going to say to try to stop her.
"ill let everyone know im okay. im sorry i had you all worried. but after i talk to my family, the others.. and i guess whoever else i have to in regards to this police situation you told me about... im leaving." Eunjung nodded.
"will you at least, think about it? think about staying?" Troy pleaded.
"i have thought about it enough." eunjung shrugged. she got up and gave troy one last look. he looked up at her disappointed. she walked slowly to the door.
"troy, i really hope things work out with you and soyeon." She said as she grabbed the doorknob. "and i hope i can see you on TV one day as a real hockey star. good luck. good bye." she opened the door.
"im not saying good bye... because i know even if you do decide to leave, if your friends and family dont talk you out of it... i know ill see you again." Troy said looking at her from his couch. Eunjungs eyes looked watery. She let out a tiny smile.
"im sorry, and thank you again." she said as she let herself out. later that night, Troy got a phone call from Boram..
"Troy you inconsiderate jerk!" was how she greeted him. "dont call us and let us know youre home or anything!"
"well. to be fair, you werent supposed to know. I told Qri not to tell anyone." Troy said in his defesne."no, you said don tell soyeon, and she didnt. she told me. and i told soyeon." Boram said not holding back the sass. "and were you going to let anyone know Eunjung came back?"
"i was i just. have a lot on my plate right now." Troy replied.
"hey, are you okay? you sound a bit off." she asked picking up on troys melancholy tone.
"i think im just. spread too thin." Troy mumbled.
"well you can talk to me about it. want to meet up or something?" Boram encouraged him.
"nah. im good. i mean. im home now. eunjungs back. things are all good." Troy said despressed.
"okay youre acting wierd. dont move im coming over."
"no, Boram it's okay.." Troy tried to tell her before she hung up on him. It was getting darker out. the snow flurries were still falling, though there was no accumulation on the ground. Boram finally arrived knocking rapidly on the door. Troy got up to answer the door.
"whats up with you?" She said exploding through the door.
"Boram, being intense isn't going to help." Said soyeon following her in. Troy did not expect her to be there.
"Soyeon?" he said surprised.
"Qri told us what happened. we're glad youre home." She said warmly with a smile.
"now we came here to figure out why you're acting so ... depressed. they didn't abuse you in there did they?" Boram said checking his arms for possible bruises.
"cut it out." Troy said yanking his arm from Boram. "it's just not a good feeling to be arrested and accused of doing things.."
"Troy it's ok. remember that day when they came to the school? i told you you had nothing to worry about." Soyeon tried to reassure him. "and now its clear."
"sure its gotta feel awful. i guess i wasnt thinking too much about that part of it. sorry Troy. but at least we know the police are working hard trying to find Hyomin." Boram said trying to sound positive.
"thats right, and Eunjungs back. she safe with her family now. all that will be cleared up." Soyeon added. "we just have to stay strong and believe.. and im sure hyomin will turn up alright."
"i want to believe that as well." Troy said slumping down on his couch. "t
roy. you idiot!" Boram was getting frustrated with him. "we came all the way here to cheer you up. so start getting cheery!"
"boram! i told you to stop that." Soyeon said pushing her aside.
"i appreciate it, but.." Troy didnt have an explanation that he could give them.
"is there anything we can do to help?" Soyeon asked him, she sat beside him on the couch.
"so, was it either of you who gave a witness statement to the police for me?" Troy said turning to them. Soyeon and Boram looked at each other confused and they both shook their heads no.
"Qri maybe?" he asked again.
"she didnt mention it when she called me." Boram shrugged.
"the more i try to think the more my brain hurts." Troy whined.
"then dont think about it, just rest. calm down. youre home now." Soyeon said trying to calm him down.
"but hyomin isnt." Troy agonized. Soyeon and boram said nothing.
"i didnt want you to come here. i didnt want anyone to see me like this." Troy tried to hide his face in a pillow.
"then, we'll go. if you need us just call us." Boram said bluntly. she tapped soyeon for her to come. as she stood up, troy grabbed her wrist.
"but i dont.. want to be alone... either." he said softly.
"troy make up your mind or ill do it for you!" Boram shouted.
"Boram. wait outside." Soyeon said pointing to the door.
"are you serious? in the snow?" boram couldnt believe soyeon had said that.
"shouting at him like that isnt helping." Soyeon said.
"ive dealt with Troys breakdowns before, i know what he needs. he needs to get a grip and stop blaming himself for everything!" boram ranted. "classic Troy behavior we are all aware of!"
"boram..." Soyeon simply replied.
"fine have it your way. dont let me be a third wheel." Boram threw up her arms giving up and stormed out.
"Troy. ill stay with you if you want me to." She said still sitting beside him. Troy took his face out of the pillow and looked up at her slowly.
"i do want you to, but...you should probably just go back with Boram." He said before putting his face back into the pillow.
"okay." she rubbed his arm and got up. "i hope you feel better. and call me if you want to talk. okay?"
troy didnt answer. he just sat motionless.
"good night troy." Soyeon said and went out to join boram.
"AND YOU BETTER NOT SKIP OUT ON SCHOOL TOMORROW!" Boram shouted from outside troys door.
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You're My Target
Fiksyen Peminat[t-ara fanfic] original description from when i began writing it on the diadem forum many moons ago: the story revolves around character named Troy who transfers from a city to a small town school. he transfers to be a part of their highly decorate...
