Need You

The Changes

QOTD: What's your favorite food? I think mine is fries or like any fast food :)

I think I'm starting to feel a little sick myself. The doctor left me with the most life changing news. I don't know how Ashlynn will handle it. I covered my face and breathed. I was panicking. This can't be happening. Life was perfectly fine and her health was perfect. I exited the room and walked around the property of the hospital to cool off before I exploded with many different emotions.

Ashlynn's POV:

My arm is extremely sore and feels like someone cut into it. The amount of needles that have entered my veins is more than the amount I had when giving birth. I heard talking but it was all mumbled to me. Exhaustion kept my eyes closed and my body numb. I don't understand what's happening. I was perfectly fine the day before and now I'm in the hospital. I feel so tired. I need sleep but my mind is going crazy.

I felt another needle piercing through my skin and I knew it's time for me to sleep because I'm going to eventually scream in pain by how bad my arm hurts. I rested my mind and I finally slept.

Many hours passed when I finally woke up. I slowly opened my eyes and was met with the blinding hospital lights. I groaned and closed my eyes. I don't understand why they have lights literally at eye level. We all are sensitive to lights so take that in consideration when designing hospital rooms. I adjusted my eyes to light then looked around. I saw Xavier staring at the wall. He looked stressed as if something bad happened. Is it about me? Is it about his company?

I couldn't talk. My throat was extremely dry. I looked around for something to get his attention with it but didn't find anything. I cleared my throat loudly and it caught his attention. His mood changed and the stressed look was gone. "Let me get you some water", he said. He proceeded to pour me a cup of water then assisted me with drinking it.

I laid my head back and watched him. Sympathetic eyes looked at me. "What's wrong...", I asked because the wait and suspense was killing me. "Nothing is wrong", he said as he went back to his relaxed face.

"Stop lying to me"

"I'm not"

"Yes you are"

He sighed. He seemed so hesitant. "Am I dying?", I asked. I just needed to know what's wrong. "No. But you should wait for the doctor to tell you what's wrong with you", he said calmly. "No. You know what's wrong so start talking", I demanded. "I can't be the person telling you this just be patient please", he begged.

I'm going to explode. What is he hiding from me? I pressed the nurses button and asked the nurse to get the doctor for me. The doctor came in and took a seat.

"What's wrong with me", I asked impatiently. "Based on your blood work and the tests we ran....we're diagnosing you with stomach cancer. We aren't sure what stage you are at but as we run more tests we'll be able to give you that information. As soon as possible we need to get you on chemotherapy to fight off the cancer cells", he said.

My world stopped. Everything seemed numb. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. This can't be happening. What did I do to deserve this? My children. I can't leave them. My emotions were going crazy. Suddenly I just started crying. I don't know what's going on right now. What I thought was food poisoning ended up being a death sentence.

Xaviers POV:

She bursted out crying after moments of silence. I stood up and went to her. I hugged her and kept her close to me. She needs comfort and love because after today her whole life is changed. Who knows how long she's had this before the doctor found out about it?

I let her cry on me. She has the right to cry and freak out and do what she pleases. I don't know how her family is going to react to this. That isn't the main priority, right now we need to focus on getting her mindset okay and to get her on treatment.

The doctor quietly got up and left the room to provide privacy. I comforted her and tried to get her to calm down. "You're going to beat this", I whispered to her. She shook her head and kept crying. "I don't deserve this", she cried. "I know you don't", I reassured her. It took awhile but she ended up calling down.

She stayed quiet as she laid her head on my chest. I didn't say anything in order for her to stay calm. I felt her hide her face in my shirt. I looked down at her

and with the small piece of her face showing, I could tell she was extremely upset and tired.

"Let's sleep and talk about this in the morning. We've had a long day", I said as I fixed the blanket on us. She didn't say anything but I knew she was gonna get tired and fall asleep. We stayed in silence.

Ashlynn's POV:

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to react. Everything was perfectly fine. I was finally getting back to my old life where I was happy and had everything I needed and wanted. Now life is being turned upside down and disoriented. How do I explain this to my family? How do I explain this to my kids? How do you tell children that your mother is dying and we don't know how long she has till she dies?

The pain of chemotherapy based on people's stories and experiences doesn't seem pleasant. I don't want to go through something like that. Do I want to die from cancer or chemotherapy? Do I want a painful life or a peaceful life? These many questions that are going to be kept unanswered. 

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Still sick but was bored in study so I decided to finish up this chapter and post it. Hope you have a wonderful day and don't let anyone bring you down. 

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