you have done it.
you have made my quiet soul turn vile.
do you know what your little jokes do?
you were born to deceive.
you were born to be all about bullshit.
you are so immature,
you turned me vile.
you turned me unpleasant,
now i guess we have something in common.
i sense you like to have many multiple perspectives on things,
according to your two faces.
oh, how much does it feed into my pain.
seeing you trying so pathetically to reach me.
to reach my level.
to get my attention.
it is so satisfying, being able to be so rude to you.
finally able to prove to you that you can't mess with me.
i will prove it even more.
prove you how you can't pass above my walls.
not like you ever tried to.
what did you try for?
absolutely nothing.
saying you had feelings for me.
if that's what love felt like, i wish i would never feel anything again.
then you want to be a superior person.
honey, it's not only your height that doesn't allow you to be superior.
you are empty, like your intentions.
this time i will not lower my walls.
nothing, i repeat because you have the tendency to not understand words, nothing will make me lower my walls.
not tears, not emotions.
i signed my kindness away with this.
no, no, you did.
i hope we die, violently. i will punch us to death.
i will tear us apart. i will let all the darkness in me out. open those doors.
i will cut it into a million pieces.
i will throw us as bait in the bottom of the ocean.
i will watch us get devoured.
i will choke us until we have absolutely no hopes of survival.
i will torture us until we grasp to absolutely anything in order to get out that hellhole.
i will actually shut our mouth.
i will tear our core apart until there is no proof it ever existed.
i will poison us so we feel utter pain.
i will kill us slowly, and painfully. so you feel like me.
i will devour us.
at times like this, you disgust me.
your existence does.
i will not allow you to make me feel ashamed of my opinions or uncomfortable with my body.
because who do you think you are?
if you can't support your own community, who would you support?
i should have known. but who cares at this point?
how you have driven me to this point, and there is no turning back.
i guess you'll learn the difference without me in your life soon enough.
you will see what it's like to not have someone by your side despite every fucking mistake and the fucked-up things you do to others.
and you will see how it is when you realize how much more alone you really are.
and maybe you will understand and cherish the moments you had someone that allowed you to break them repeatedly.
i wish i could put a warning sign on you. so people know to completely ignore you.
i hope maybe you wouldn't move or exist like one too.
i wish i could find something nice about you.
you completely lost that in my eyes.
i guess this is what it feels being killed mentally, although you made me feel like i was dead physically as well.
i suppose you didn't really have anyone in your life to love you anyway.
maybe that explains why you are so unlovable.
i've given up on you. and on us, as well.
enjoy this side of me.
p.s. go fuck yourself.
