i wish i could just kill you in my brain.
completely vanish you.
i am not holding you accountable for it,
i just wish i could stop hurting.
i wish i could erase you off the face of my earth,
because it really hurts to know i shall never own a piece of you.
hold you in the dolorous moments,
laugh with you,
and taste you.
how could i ever explain with words the way you make me feel?
utterly beautiful on the inside,
but never secure enough to allow me to spit out the secret words.
i just flee and keep on feeding on to my lie.
you are my dread and my pleasure.
