i know you accept me.
i realise you're not someone who will judge me.
i've heard your heart beat, i've seen you in the worst moments.
but tell me,what am i supposed to do?
with these fears that hold me dearly?
how should i face you? how should i let you know it's not your fault?
will you believe me? or will you think i'm simply lying?
how should i tell you?
how should i show you that you're special to me...
that thanks to you i've been saved many times?
but... yet again, i lack the courage to act. i lack the courage to be.
i'm sorry.
i apologise dearly... for not being able to live. to live and be.
it's probably just an excuse i tell myself because i'm scared of it all, but i hope you don't see me as a coward.
even though i am.
is it bad i'm selfish like this?
