𝗷𝗲𝗿𝗸 - 𝗻𝗮 𝗷𝗮𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗻

25

jaemins pov

i woke up in the middle of the night to hear soft snores. i woke up fully , and put my hand on the handle and tried opening it only to remember that she's hurt because of me.

i slowly started remembering what happened , and i felt my tears coming . i don't even know how it happened, but i fell hard for y/n. she means the world to me , and for her to be crying because of me hurts me.

i slowly got up , and dragged my legs to the coach. it was cold.... i missed her warmth. i missed her. i started crying . i couldn't bare to lose her. the more i cried , the sleepier i got. i finally decided to drift off to sleep.

y/n's pov

i woke up because the sun shone on my face. it was pretty cold last night , since it's in the 20's .

"wheres jaemin" i asked to myself, then all of sudden the thoughts of last night hit me like a truck.

"oh" i said with a low voice. i felt my heart ache , and i didn't hear anyone in the house , so i went and got something i thought i would never use again.

i grabbed it , since i saw it here last time. i haven't done this for months, and now because of jaemin , i'm going to do it.

i put the blade on my skin , and slowly cut my skin. i screamed. i i didn't go deep at all because i don't wanna die, but i did make myself a cut.

i heard footsteps run up stairs , and i then heard banging on the door.

"y/n , what happened are you okay, why'd you scream" i heard jaemin say with a worried voice.

"j-jaemin, you're h-here" i started shaking and panicking.

"why are you stuttering y/n , open the door" i saw my wrist , and i did two more cuts.

jaemins pov

i heard her hiss , and then heard her get up and open the door.

once the door was open , i grabbed her tightly as if i would never let her go.

"don't ever do that again." i said while trying to hold in my tears

she didn't show any emotion until i grabbed her wrist to pull her into the bed to cuddle.

"ouch jaemin" she said and brought her wrist close to her.

"wh-what happened" i said.

"no-nothing, dont w-worry about it." she said , and i got a bit suspicious.

i looked over to the counter , and saw a blade with red on it.

my eyes widen....

"y-y/n, pull down your sleeves, p-please" i said with a worried voice.

"n-no, it's no-nothing, go a-away" she said with a shaky voice.

i got her by the waist , and got her sleeve and pulled them down.

my eyes widen.

"y-y/n,, why." i said with tears forming in the corner of my eyes.

"i'm sorry jaemin, i was hurt. you hurt me , i can't bare with it. just leave." she said immediately

my heart stopped as she said the world " leave."

"no. i'm not leaving you, i'm staying with you, by your side no matter what. i'm gonna be here whenever you need someone. trust me." i said to her as i grabbed her hand.

" then why'd you kiss her yesterday" she said with sadness

"she kissed me forcefully, i don't like her. i stopped. she means nothing to me. she doesn't make my heart race anymore. she doesn't have my heart anymore. i lost my love for her. i'm over her. " i told her straight in the eye.

"you're the one for me. you have my heart. you mean the world to me and i can't let anyone hurt you. you make my heart go crazy, i'm not even kidding. you're mine." i said confidently

she looked at me with widen eyes , and a hint of pink started forming on her cheeks.

"i'm- wow, you- okay, let me comprehend this." she said a bit confused.

"you li-like me" she said shyly.

"maybe" i smiled and winked at her.

"ahhh , omgggg " she went running to me and jumped on me .

"i like you too" she smiled cheekily.

IM BACK! today's jaehyuns birthday :))) <3 also sorry for not updating sooner , i was supposed to update monday ,, but turns out i got sick lol. i think i'll be able to update tomorrow? thank you for everything , and yes the nex chapter WILL INCLUDE RENJUN AND JENO :))))