19: Get Outta' My Head

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In my head
I die
I gave you everything
For you I tried
But you threw that out
Like I was nothing and I don't want this..
I don't need this

Just get out of my head
Before I'm completely dead
Someone save me
From these bullshit memories
I never thought I'd
Give up when I tried
So hard for you
But I was nothing
I don't want this..
I don't deserve this

The pain you put me through
I've done all I can do
You fixed everything
And then took me..
You just threw me out
Like I was nothing
You made me bigger
Then broke me down
Oh my fucking god just get the fuck out

Was it all just a lie
Did you save me so I could die
Once more inside
I'm all alone and...
I'm so cold and...
I don't want this to end
But it's already done
The lies that were spun
Have already come undone..

Just get out
Just leave me to die
Leave me to weaken and grow old before their eyes
You did this to me
How could you
You were all that I had left
I still need you..

Do I ever run through your head
Like you run through mine
You prepared me for another death
Is this a lovely sight
I wish you could see
Just what you did
I'm still bleeding
And you won't get out of my head
I never thought I'd end up here again..

Just get out of my head
Before I'm completely dead
Someone save me
From these bullshit memories
I never thought I'd
Give up when I tried
So hard for you
But I was nothing
I don't want this..
I don't deserve this

And here I am
Once again
Staring at my end
Standing at the edge
Here I am
Alone I stand
This is it
This is my final breath
This is my final tears
This is something Ive faced
Over and over again throughout the years

Am I ready to jump
Am I ready for that step
Am I ready to throw away
The life I regret
I'm afraid this time
The answer is yes

Will you be there before I land
Will you have out stretched hands
Will you be at the bottom of the sea
Will you catch me before all is lost
I don't want to suffer from your mistakes anymore

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