I Won't Let You Go

Chapter 1

Björn Ulvaeus was just sitting on his favorite rocking chair in the sun room of his home sipping some tea. He was looking forward to heading to his private refuge: work. He had other private refuges though, such as Mono Music and Slottsholmen. Those were the only places that Björn can just be himself, especially when it comes to a particular someone that he has been seeing at Mono Music quite often lately.

Benny and Björn had decided to bring ABBA back into their lives and Björn couldn't be any happier. It meant that he could see his Agnetha more often. She was the only woman he's ever loved and he lost her 40 years ago. He had been spending far too much time at the studio and he was just to stubborn, arrogant, and prideful. He had prioritized ABBA and the fame that went along with it more than his wife and children and he's been paying the price for it ever since that Christmas morning when she left with the kids and never came back.

Björn had been hoping she'd come back sooner than later, but he lost all hope after only one week. It wasn't until Lena Kallersjo, the woman he has been stuck with for the 40 years since, had begun manipulating him to a relationship, and then marriage, and then two daughters, and ultimately, grandchildren with her as well. It wasn't until his divorce with Agnetha went through and the day he and Lena married that Björn realized that he should've gone back to Agnetha himself.

But it was too late. Lena was already his and he had to suffer through it. In fact, Lena never loved Björn or Emma and Anna, their two beloved girls. Lena just wanted a trophy husband and to her, Björn was her slave along with their girls. Lena purposely got pregnant with Emma to keep Björn away from Linda and Christian, his two children with Agnetha, and then got pregnant with Anna and purposely moved the entire family to London for that reason as well.

Björn always asked about Agnetha whenever he was on the phone with Linda and Christian, as well as with Tilda, Esther, and Signe, his granddaughters. He knew Agnetha was depressed. She has been depressed for so long and he wanted to make it better. From the moment they first fell in love, Björn and Agnetha immediately had an intuitive effect on one another in which they can see past one another very easily, as much as they try to hide it. Despite their divorce, both Björn and Agnetha still have that effect on one another.

Björn knows very well that Agnetha is hurting and is depressed and suicidal. He badly wants to help her but he's always chickening out. He's so afraid something will happen if he intervenes that he keeps taking a step back. It will prove to be fatal one day if he doesn't act now as it has been going on for so long now. I need to do something about Agnetha. It has to be now or she'll carry through with it one of these days and I'll regret it forever, he thought.

Björn sensed that Lena was going to wake up from her sleep as it is already 9 am, so he grabbed all his stuff and headed out. He got into his car and had one destination in mind: Ekerö. He was going to help Agnetha today no matter what.

Meanwhile in Ekerö, Agnetha headed back to her bedroom after a lovely family breakfast. She didn't really eat anything. She would often tell Linda that she just wasn't in the mood or that she simply just wasn't hungry, or that she already ate but Linda was simply having none of it. She knows her mother well. Agnetha has lost a significant amount of weight already and it has started to become noticeable. Agnetha didn't want Linda, Christian, Jens, Isabelle, or any of the grandkids to notice, but most of them already have noticed. Linda, Christian, Jens, Isabelle, and Tilda to be exact.

The five of them, and Linda especially, wanted to help Agnetha in any way possible. It just couldn't go on like this anymore. It just couldn't. Just then, several knocks were heard on the door as Esther, Signe, and Nike were out playing and everyone else was clearing up the kitchen table and expressing their concerns for Agnetha, who was still hiding in her bedroom. Linda quickly answered the door after noticing that it was Björn.

"Papa! So good to see you!" Linda exclaimed as she and Björn shared a warm hug.

Björn hugged all the others before sitting down at the table. They were all devastated and concerned. Linda, Christian, Jens, Isabelle, and Tilda were also relieved that Björn was here because of the situation, but they didn't want to put their hopes too high and too soon.

"Where's your mother? Is she here?" Björn asked.

"Yeah she went back up to her room," Christian replied.

"Ok good. I need to talk with her. It's very serious," Björn said.

"We need to talk with her too," Jens replied.

"I know what this is about and believe me, it's my fault she's been like this for so long. I started this mess and now I want to fix it before it's too late," Björn said.

"Papa, it isn't your fault. Well, at least not entirely. Mama made some mistakes too. But now that you're here, we should talk for sure. Mama needs help. Urgent help. This can't go on for any longer. She needs us and she needs you more importantly," Linda said with tears flowing.

"Linda, believe me. I need her too. And I'm here now," Björn replied, putting his hand on Linda's shoulder.

"We all know you and Mormor still love each other. It's that obvious. And we all know Lena treats you and Aunty Emma and Aunty Anna like crap. Come back to her, Morfar. You guys will be stronger and happier again," Tilda added.

"Thank you guys. Now if you excuse me, I have to have an important conversation with a very special someone," Björn said as he got up from his chair and headed towards Agnetha's bedroom.

Meanwhile, Agnetha was lying on her bed quietly sobbing her heart out over her lost love and coming up with ways to end her life sooner than later. She got up out of her bed and into the en suite bathroom and grabbed her beloved razor blade and was just about to place it near her wrist again when she all of a sudden heard loud knocks on the door.

She let out a frustrated groan as she dropped the razor blade and headed over to the door. What is it now?!, she thought. When she opened the door and saw who it was, she was left in absolute shock.