Total Drama All Stars

Day 12

I sat in my cabin bunk surprisingly quite happy. Sure I wasn’t in some fancy, gorgeous spa hotel, where I totally should be since I held the lead in today’s challenge for quite a while; but I digress.

I’m feeling this nice happiness because Courtney is flushed and gone out of this game. Yes, she hasn’t been a serious problem for me in a few years, but I’ll never like the girl, that’s just a simple fact, so it’s always nice to see her leave the show penniless.

Unfortunately since Zoey won the spa hotel, I’ll have to be bunking with Gwen for a few nights. My plan is to just have my headphones on constantly and ignore her as much as I can.

After a few hours of scrolling mindlessly through Tumblr, Gwen came in the room; I immediately turned my music up ready to ignore her. I saw her say hi out of the corner of my eye, but my music was so loud, I couldn’t hear anything. It was pretty therapeutic.

She said my name a few times before coming right up to me. I just turned on my side “Sorry, can’t hear you!” I said loudly, take a hint honey.

Before I knew what was happening she climbed onto my top bunk and ripped my headphones out. “Whoa! I was listening to that!”

“No, you were trying to ignore me” She said yanking the cord so they’d come out of my phone.

“Eh!” I whined as she did “You’re gonna break them!”

“I’m sick and tired of you ignoring me!” She said dropping the headphones on my bed and getting off the bunk and onto the floor.

“Hey you’re the one who tried to get with Duncan several times, you saw how much that made me like Courtney, what makes you think it’d be any different for you?” I said, I mean it was very simple logic.

“Didn’t you hate Courtney from day one?” She asked getting off topic.

“Yes but her trying to steal Duncan from me a million times really didn’t help our relationship now did it?”

“Alex I’m sorry I had feelings for Duncan, I’m completely over it now, being into him has just ruined too many relationships. I get it, I’m not meant to be with him, you guys are meant to be together and I’m honestly so happy for you guys” She tried to get me on her side again.

All this talk about Duncan and our life was just making me angrier; I was still in such denial about the Duncan situation. I had been a moody bitch for a few days, and then I completely blocked the situation out. Once I found out Duncan would only be getting two years, I just stopped thinking about it.

I didn’t need to worry about him being in there for five or more years, the verdict was set and he was doing his time, so constantly worrying would do nothing but upset me. I just started focusing on my friendship with Alejandro and continuing the game, but now that it’s almost over, and Alejandro’s gone, it’s been creeping in my mind more.

I don’t have anything great to come home to, just a big empty apartment filled with everything and anything Duncan owns and loves with me. My whole life revolved around him, my job, our home, everything. So I was honestly dreading going home. Yes everybody left on this island was driving me insane, Zoey hates me, Mal’s evil, Scott’s border-line retarded, and Gwen I hate for obvious reasons, but I’d take all this over going back home and really facing my reality of living without Duncan for two years.

So Gwen talking about him, and bringing up all this un-dealt with muck was really getting under my skin “How about we don’t talk about Duncan. You’ve been after him since season two, don’t know why. You and Trent were a fine couple, but you still did what you did, and you kept doing it onto this season, I can’t trust you, and I don’t want to be friends with you!”