On-Duty

11- farewell

It's been 3 days since the battle. We won the battle pero Hindi kame nagcelebrate. The country is so happy that the most wanted leader and his right hand man died in the battle. Pero di nila alam na ilang sundalo ang nagbuwis ng buhay at nasaktan. Isa dun ay ang misis ko. Hindi pa siya patay pero di pa din siya gumigising and sabi ng doctor, 40/60 Ang lagay niya. 40% lang ang chance niya mabuhay. Di ako susuko at patuloy na kakapit sa 40% na yun.

"I'm sorry but the child inside her didn't make it anymore" Sabi ng doctor na nagpaguho sa mundo ko lalo. Left lower chamber ventricles ang tinamaan ng bala kay Jisoo. Pinangangambahan na maaaring tinamaan din ang arteries Niya kung saan ito yung nagdadala ng oxygen sa buong katawan ng isang tao.

"Laban tayo love please.." bulong ko sa kanya habang hawak ko ng dalawang kamay ang isang kamao nya. Di tumitigil ang patak ng luha ko lalo na nung nalaman kong pregnant siya at nawala Ito ng tuluyan. Kung alam ko lang sana ipinilit ko na di na lang siya sumama sa laban kahit magaway kaming dalawa kesa naman di kame nagaway pero nawala naman ang anak namin and the worst is pati siya mawala saken.

Tut Tut Tut Tut...

Yan lang naririnig ko sa paligid habang pinagmamasdan yung maganda kong asawa na puro tube sa katawan.

I heard the creak of the door opens and it reveals Dad. I didn't look at the person who entered but the way his shoes sounds, I know it's him.

He put his hand on my shoulder handling me a white envelope. I look at him and wipe my tears and grab the letter with respect. He nods then get out again. I deep sigh and opens it.

My dearest Pokpak,

As soon as you are reading this I know something bad happened to me right now. I decide to wrote you a letter cause I am feeling that this will happen. Maybe I do have powers to predict eh? My love, I want to tell you how much I love you since from the start I saw you blushing while stolen shot at me nung dumating kame sa camp. May something sayo na na'magnet agad ako. And when the time you confessed, it is the most waited moment of my life especially nung nagpropose ka at kinasal tayo. Akala ko wala ng gaganda pa sa araw na yun but today made me the happiest girl alive. I found out this morning that we are having a baby. Yes love! I'm positive. I took it 3 times to make sure and all tests are 2 lines. And one thing. I saw Jennie finally! The moment they handed us the mission and those pictures, I know it's her. Ruby Jane is Jennie Love! And you promised me that if my predictions are true and I'm gone right now, please take care of her. Please look for her. Do everything to make her safe. I will count on you.

You were the best partner in my life. Please be happy for me and love again.

PS.
Get some DNA example for me and Ruby to make sure.

Mahal na Mahal Kita my love. You deserve to be happy. Wag ka masyado malungkot.

Turtle-Rabbit Kim
Jisoo Kim - Manoban
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Lahat naka itim. Halos lahat umiiyak. This is the last day we will see Jisoo lying her cold body inside a coffin. My eyes were tired from crying. I had my black shades on as I stood from sit. Naglakad ako papunta sa coffin ng asawa ko with Dalgom on my other hand. They gave me the flag they folded before bringing down the coffin. Dalgom is barking non-stop as if he knew what is happening. I let out the one stem sunflower from my hand and throw it 6 feet under were her coffin is ready to bury. I pick out our picture inside my pocket with a written letter at the back. Yun yung first day ng honeymoon naten sa California. Magkayakap tayo habang dinadama yung lamig ng hangin sa gilid ng beach.

"I'm still standing looking at your grave done. You have a name on it with our first child name under".
I said forming a weak smile seeing my surname to the both of them. I know everyone left and I told them to leave me alone to have a moment with my wife and child.

Jisoo Kim-Manoban
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Baby Lisoo Manoban

I may be standing and breathing right now but I want to be dead at the moment. Every part of me is still alive but my feelings are dead gone now. Sadness and anger remains in me. Revenge will only ease the pain in me. But who am I going to take my revenge with? Jennie? But her sister loves her that's why she took the bullet for her.

I don't know how to feel anymore. Ang alam ko lang wala ng reason para sumaya. Nawala na ang asawa ko kaya wala ng reason to continue living.
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It's been a week since my leave and my wife died. I have my one month leave. Plano sana namin ni misis yun after the mission to look for Jennie pero ako na lang pala yung tutupad at sa malungkot na reason pa!

"Masaya dapat tayo ngayon magkasama e kaso iniwan mo ko!" I said while staring at my whisky bottle.

I took my nth time shot of my whisky. Pinipigilan na ko ni RM uminom since kilala na niya ko dahil isang linggo na kong continues pumupunta dito tuwing gabi. Waiter siya dito at alam niya story ko since nakwento ko na sa kanya nung unang gabi ko pa lang.

Pagod na ko umiyak Kaya iniinom ko na lang yung sakit. Bumabagsak na yung mata ko habang tinitignan at pinaiikot ko yung wedding ring nya sa smallest finger ko katabi ng wedding ring ko palasingsingan ko. Yung engagement ring niya hinayaan kong suot niya para dalhin niya sa kabilang buhay baka sakaling maalala niya ko dun.

"Cute ng wedding ring niyo. Bat white gold? Kadalasan gold di ba? Unique" Sabi ng boses ng babae na umupo sa tabi ko na nag order ng orange juice. I slowly turn my gaze around to see her face kahit pupungas pungas na ko. Naningkit yung mata ko para kilalanin yung babae.

"M-major Lee?" Tanong ko kase di ako sure. Tumawa lang siya ng konti at sinubukan kong tumayo ng maayos pero natutumba na ko. Kaya nagsalute na lang ako ng nakaupo.

"Bumalik ka na sa serbisyo kailangan ka na dun" she said to start a conversation.

"Bakit pa?" Sagot ko. Di ko na inisip kung bastos ba ko pakinggan kase nakainom naman ako kaya malakas loob ko.

"Kase yung anak ni Jaguar is looking for Ruby Jane I mean Jennie. And they threatened us if we don't surrender her. You don't want to surrender your wife's sister right?" She asked calmly.

"Paka straight forward mo. Walang banggitan ng pangalan ng asawa masakit pa e!" Sabi ko habang tinuturo yung puso ko.

"Kailangan mo marinig yung Jisoo! Jisoo! Jisoo! Para masanay ka na. And eventually di ka na masasaktan.. she wants you to be happy. Lahat kame yun din ang gusto so please. Hindi ikaw to!" She turn her gaze to me and put her hand on top of my hand on the counter. I quickly pull away kase kung makita yun ni Jisoo magseselos yun sigurado.

She got flinched when I pull away that made me guilty.

"Give me time. I'll think about it" I said as I pull out a cash and place it on the counter. I manage to stand up and talk again.

"Bayaran ko na din yung drinks niya and Kung may oorderin pa siya" Sabi ko Kay RM placing 100 thousand won on the counter leaving him mouth opened. Umalis na ko at di ko na ininda kung Sino mabangga ko.