On-Duty

24- she said no

Jennie

"Jennie will you marry me?"

I was shocked. She asked me kahit wala pa kaming isang buwan sa relasyon. I love Lisa so much. Even before na nakikita ko pa Lang sila ni ate. I admire her beauty, the way she is so gentleman kay ate. Kung pano niya gawin reyna si ate. I got to like her as well. And it took me by surprise when fate lead the both of us para maging kami.

She hated each me at first. Alam ko yun. Ramdam ko yun. I never hated her. Dinepensahan ko Lang yung sarili ko kung pano niya ko tratuhin at ayoko magmukhang mahina.

Nakahawak ako sa mukha niya. Umiiyak siya habang sinasabi niya Yun and I felt how genuine she is by asking me that question.

"Lisa I love to marry you. Gosh. You don't have any idea how I badly want to marry you but" natigilan ako nung nakita ko na lumungkot yung mata niya.

"But Jisoo is your sister right?" Tanong ni Lisa pabalik saken. She fake a smile at me.

"I understand" she added but I know she doesn't. Tumayo siya and grab her robe inside the bag. She wear it and headed to the balcony. I did the same.

"Hun hear me out" I pleaded nung tumabi ako sa kanya habang tinitignan yung pagsikat ng araw.

"Please" I added and she look at me and caressed my cheek with her hand. Pumikit ako at hinawakan ko yung kamay niya sa pisngi ko.

"I'm sorry if you felt I'm rushing you" Sabi niya at napadilat ako. Yes. I felt that she rushed me but I felt the guilt of declining her.

"As my dad said. Live like if it's the last day. Grab the opportunity like I'm gonna die tomorrow. If I want to do something, do it now or regret it later if I won't. Kung Mahal mo, sabihin mo na agad. Pakasalan mo kinabukasan" she fake a chuckle.

"Nasaktan ako hindi dahil tinanggihan mo ko kundi alam ko naman na tatanggi ka pero inexpect ko pa din na hindi" she explained. I pull down her hand with my hand and stare at her.

"I love you Lisa. Since the day I saw how you loved ate. Nainggit ako. Sana ako na Lang siya at sana ikaw na lang si Kai. Gustong gusto Kita pakasalan. Pero Kung magpapakasal ba tayo ngayon may magbabago? Wala naman di ba? Mahal pa din Kita at Mahal mo ko. Love is not about marriage and stuff Hun. Hanggat magkasama tayo, masaya tayo ok na yun. Alam ko naman na mahihirapan ka Lang magpaalam kay ate. Alam ko mahirap pa din sayo na ilet-go ang marriage niyo. Lisa I will always love you ikasal man tayo o Hindi at panatag ako hanggat alam long nandiyan ka" I wipe my tears while looking at her. She was just looking at the sky but I know she is listening intently at me.

She let out a heavy but slowly sigh and look at me. She smiles and turn her body to face me.

"I-i just want you to be Jennie Kim- Manoban. It so good hearing that name. I also want to have kids with you. I want us to be a family" she said in a cracking voice.

"I know Hun. But what if.. what if I die too? You will have a hard time to marry someone because of me.. you will having a hard time letting go of me too like what you were with ate.. believe me we will get there..tapusin natin tong Laban na to.. papakasal Tayo" I explained and I saw her eyes softens.

"But please promise me one thing Hun" she said.

"Anything Hun" I answered.