Perfectly Undone

Chapter 14: Not Perfect

Chapter 14||

I swear I just hate makeup, it's never been my favorite and it causes me to break out. But I looked dead from being up so late, but Bryant looked perfectly fine. He looked hot, how did a girl like me get such a hot guy. I mean he's like a solid ten.

"Good-morning beautiful." He kissed my neck as he wrapped his arms around my waist. I couldn't help but smile. He was just too perfect. I kept putting on my makeup and he just stood there watching my every move.

"Are you ready to see her?" He asked. I nodded my head, "Yeah, I mean I guess I need to tell her what's up. And I really need to help her, I can tell she's ripping her hair out about this wedding. She doesn't know what to do even after her Pinterest board about her dream wedding."

He laughed and sat down on my bed, "Really a Pinterest board about a wedding?"-He kept laughing, but little did he know almost every girl on the planet had one. Probably even his own sisters-"Do you have one?" He stopped laughing and looked at me, "Do you have one?" He repeated once again.

I started applying more highlighter out of nervousness, "I mean, yeah-"He stood up and walked closer to me and smirked, "I mean that's pretty cute Elle." He kissed me and I knew how much I loved him. The times I talked about the future with Josh, he would get all scared and then he would hurt me. 

"Hey, I hope we have the best wedding ever. You can plan it and I'll name the kids." He laughed and walked out of my room. Oh he's not naming the kids, over my dead body. I quickly applied lipstick and ran after him. "Over my dead body you're naming our kids."

"I'm naming our kids, I swear. Eliza and Robert, duh they'll have beautiful names. I promise, you'll be so drugged up you won't remember. I'll name them."

"What do you mean I'll be so drugged up? I can take pain quite well. What happens if I don't even want children?! I mean I've been through so much pain already, so why go through the pain with children?" Shit.

He dropped his head and a wave of disappointment spread across his face and to add to that his smile grew smaller and smaller as the minutes passed by,"That's okay, I can manage. If the love of-"

"Please just please, don't finish this sentence. We've been dating for a month-" I held up my hand but nothing was going to stop the words that would leave his mouth.

"And I know my true feelings for you. I always know my true feeling for someone, I swear I really do love you. I'm not going to mess up your life like Josh did, I'll love you more than he would. I heard what you said last night." His voice got softer and he grabbed me and looked into my eyes.

"I love you Ellie, I swear to god I love you."

I put my arms around his neck and cried into his neck. And I love you too. "I can't say it yet. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." He squeezes me tighter, "I just needed you to know."

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I saw Celeste sitting at our normal table with a glass of wine in her hand. I mean it is five o'clock somewhere. She put down her glass and got up when she saw me, I swear she ran towards me in what felt like slow motion. "I was a bitch. I'm so sorry."

It takes me a couple seconds to process what she's saying but when it does I start talking, "No I swear I overreacted. I've been super stressed lately. I caved on you girly."

She guided me towards the table and handed me her glass where I gladly took a sip. "I really do wanna ask you to be my maid of honor. I can't live without my best friend. It feels like I didn't talk to you for weeks." I swear I can't live without her either.

"Same girl. I swear no other friend groups apologizes this fast. We're just special." I laugh.

"True."

We order some food and she tells me how none of the dresses she's tried on have set off that spark in her. They all make her feel meh, I really think she wants to design something. I don't know if she would have the time for it, but I do know Jacob probably has money somewhere set aside for her. Knowing him he's already saving up for a family.

She's been wanting to design things for years. I would look at her sketches back in middle school and high school, they always surprised me. The necklines, the long trains, and my personal favorites were always the off the shoulder things. "Design something C. I bet y'all have the money for it. I know you have an old sewing machine and we know where all the fabric stores are." She got so excited and you could tell she was ready for a challenge.

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It was three in morning, we were in her apartment. I had brought my textbooks to study and Celeste was starting her dress designs. I needed to keep up on my old literature class and I knew that if I didn't study I was going to be in trouble.

Celeste was smiling and using a seam ripper, I was happy she wasn't mad or else she would be ripping me to shreds. I thought back to earlier today, with Bryant and him saying I love you.

Those three little words were the scariest words in the english language. Why would you say it so fast? You just couldn't be so sure of it after a month and some weeks. I was going to meet his parents and that was even more scary. What would happen if they didn't like me? Or they weren't impressed with anything I do, like my own parents.

I woke up with a textbook in my lap and my glasses almost falling off my face. Celeste was wide awake by her sewing machine. She was most likely on her third cup of coffee, she looked tired but I knew she wasn't going to give up this easily. She had her dress form out and she had small pieces clasped on. I already knew she wasn't going to like the first to designs because she never knows what she wants.

I pulled in my phone which had been dead all night only to get lots of buzzing noises. Bryant left over ten messages and for some odd reasons so did Noah. Noah's messages were long and he wouldn't get to the point, something about Brooke and him were dating, she has a chil- "SHE HAS A WHAT?" I screamed.

Shit, shit, shit.